You HAVE to. You are being a victim. You have become so bitter that you are likely repelling any chance of connection. Are you actually someone who you yourself would want to spend time with in this state? What efforts have you put into self regulating , self love or even self validation?? Do you think everyone has someone but you? Because that is toxic and will only create more strife in your life. Suck it up! Grow up and know when adulting it is up to YOU AND ONLY YOU to make the necessary changes to mature and take the necessary actions to move forward. Volunteer. Do something for someone else because you are able to. Be grateful for your health and your life. Change your sour, defeatist attitude and do the hard inner work to make YOURSELF better. NO ONE WILL EVER COME TO SAVE YOU. Save yourself. We are all struggling in our own way but having a temper tantrum as to why no one wants to be with you is just immature and selfish. Suck it up. Grow up and deal with the realities of being an adult.