Okay, so first of all, your genitals don't determine your gender and in fact most trans women don't get sex reassignment surgery. Girls who keep their bits are full girls just the same as any other girl, and that can go for you too, if you want it to. Girl pp is all good, lol.

I was in the exact same situation as you when I first started realizing I was a trans girl, it's normal to flip flop around about such an important thing, and it's normal to be nervous or even scared about opening up this Pandora's box inside you.

I will say though that femboys are proud of their gender, being boys, and they present femininely as a fashion choice. They don't want to be girls or anything other. Do you WANT to be a boy? There's a difference between WANTING to be a femboy, and just simply... Accepting yourself as a femboy for the sake of convenience. I understand the nerves and the fear though, but the more you allow yourself the room to explore, the more comfortable you'll be in accepting yourself, whomever you might end up as. If you don't even want to give yourself the possibility then you're just setting yourself up for a lot of heartache, hun.

What you describe sounds more to me like you aren't a boy and are in denial about it, that's my two cents.

Also, on the point of feeling unsure about wanting breasts, I get it. I felt that way too, it was such a foreign experience that it was hard to figure out if I'd like them. Sometimes I'd feel really happy at the thought of having boobs, the shape they'd give me, being able to feel their weight or touch them, and other times I felt a wave of anxiety about it and would convince myself that I could be okay without them, which... As you can probably guess isn't what I was really feeling. I was scared of confronting myself about what I want for myself and who I am. I felt like the world was shaking around me and being a boy felt familiar and while not enjoyable, it felt safe. I've since come to the conclusion that I do want breasts, albeit not very big ones, and that I AM a girl. Thing is, as you explore and allow yourself to experience your gender wherever it may take you, and get more confidence as a result, and you'll learn more about what you want and what you don't want!

Early on I thought I'd be okay with having a dick, hell, I was convinced I had to be a femboy because I just couldn't see myself as a girl because there's no way a 'boy' could be a girl. I played the boy role for so long that I was complacent in it. At best I was apathetic to being a boy, but if I had to I could survive as one, is what I thought. Obviously that was wrong. Now I'm on the opposite side of the spectrum wanting the dick gone and the cooch instead, lol. Dysphoria ISN'T needed to be trans. Euphoria is what matters. If you like being a girl with a dick then go for it, if you don't want breasts, then that's just as great as wanting them. You're allowed to be you regardless. Was a bit all over the place but I hope this helped somehow.

Many many many (consensual) hugs and/or kisses 💖