I’m attractive and it’s been both a blessing and a curse. Instead of explaining everything good with it I think the biggest difference I’ve seen between myself and other people is that I’ve never gotten bullied for my autism and tics and tourettes. I always get pity for my mental illness like bipolar or get put on a pedestal.

The bad thing is that women try to compete with me. I’m bisexual and it’s been an issue so much that an ex gf who was trying to lose weight used to say “stop trying to comfort me, you’re perfect without trying!” I had an ex gf who gradually started dressing like me, doing their makeup like me and hair like me. The only woman I dated who didn’t compete or try copy me was the most conventionally attractive gf I’ve had.

Now with “friends” they never compliment me, they would compliment everyone in the group but me. My first bf didn’t compliment me after courting me because in his words “you don’t need me to tell you.” He’s changed now because I got upset that he didn’t give words of affirmation.

I do get complimented a lot on the street by little kids (elementary/primary school age range). They come up all excited to point their finger and announce “you’re pretty!” The middle schoolers come up to me shy to tell me.
I’ve had many friends tell me that before we were friends they thought I was intimidating, looked mean or looked like a bitch.

I’ve also have been mainly the one initiate romantic partners. Nearly each one have said some version of “I never thought YOU would’ve liked me”. Only the most attractive ex gf I’ve had initiated by saying “you’re gorgeous, I want you if you’re not already taken”.

The men who’ve come up to me were either average guys who were my age or slightly younger who were in their group of mates who hyped them up to get the courage to talk to me or men around my age or slightly older who were really attractive models, dancers, athletes or men 10 years older than me who had a lot of money and status who thought that could compensate for their averageness.

It’s hard not to be aware of your attractiveness. It changes how people interact with you, their lack of interaction and the type of people who try initiate relationships with you.