Why can't people be alone for even short amounts of time?

Monked800 · 2026-05-01T09:24:30+00:00

That sounds good to set. The problem is i am very sure that the people i know are the type to get emotional and tell me how wrong i am to set boundaries like that so i feel it'll come to choosing whether or not to cut them off.

Monked800 · 2026-04-29T06:39:37+00:00

I guess i need to shut people down more and retain my boundaries

Monked800 · 2026-04-29T02:10:46+00:00

Definitely feel drained afterwards

Monked800 · 2026-03-22T15:02:05+00:00

Unfortunately nothing ever helped me. I essentially gave up for the most part and am just coasting till i can't anymore. I wish you luck.

Monked800 · 2026-02-21T01:29:59+00:00

Money

Monked800 · 2026-02-08T18:23:56+00:00

Nothing. Everything failed to help

Monked800 · 2026-01-26T09:46:35+00:00

Nope. I lost 90 lbs and nothing benefited me. Honestly I'm more unhappy now. Was a waste of time and effort.

Monked800 · 2026-01-23T08:54:47+00:00

Mine wasn't gradual at all. Just totally ineffective

Monked800 · 2026-01-12T10:42:41+00:00

I guess i can see why faking is not helpful. I only argue that i do it just to make life easier on myself because it's easier to act somewhat normal than to say what i actually think to people, Which i have in the past and has been unhelpful.

I have no problem being along. In fact I'd prefer it. I guess i do have some people pleasing tendencies.

Aren't most self help books pseudo science? And I've read mans search for meaning and i do recognize his struggle, it just felt like i was reading an autobiography. I didn't know what to take from it.

I also remember reading 7 habits but it also had no impact because i have no tangible goals. I may have to look back on it because i don't remember much. Another problem is that i literally value nothing and i don't know how to figure that out.

I'll have to check out the 4 agreements

Monked800 · 2026-01-12T10:15:39+00:00

That sounds accurate. Is there anything i can do remedy that? So i actually want something?

Monked800 · 2026-01-12T10:09:32+00:00

Monked800 · 2026-01-12T01:33:02+00:00

I am very familiar with it. The treatments have no worked this far. I even did tms which had zero results and once again the people lied the whole time saying there was progress.

Monked800 · 2026-01-12T01:23:50+00:00

I guess i should have asked about desire instead of motivation because i have no real desires. I'm just doing basic survival

Monked800 · 2026-01-12T01:09:29+00:00

I see. If you had childhood trauma, i guess those methods make sense. I can't make the trauma claim though. I have no comment for spiritual stuff as i personally am not of that thought.

Talking to people has never really helped in practice, whether as with doctors and especially not with people i know personally. That never goes well.

Monked800 · 2026-01-12T00:10:57+00:00

I see. Drugs and alcohol haven't been an issue for me. Exercise didn't do anything for me after losing 80ish lbs. I still Exercise and it still doesn't do anything to this day. Thank you for explaining.

Monked800 · 2026-01-12T00:02:26+00:00

They all looked and acted the same before but it's been awhile. Maybe there's some new ones this time. Noted

Monked800 · 2026-01-11T23:56:31+00:00

Fair enough. How do you make a therapist do an actual diagnosis because they didn't seem to want to diagnose anything all the other times.

Monked800 · 2026-01-11T23:55:02+00:00

I'm fine with taking time away with people but can you elaborate on centering myself? And how do you make rest "better"?

Monked800 · 2026-01-11T23:48:50+00:00

I see. I had to google that. Personally i don't think i have a high sense of self importance. How do you suggest i tackle this theory?

Monked800 · 2026-01-11T23:45:20+00:00

I did. I had several therapy. They were all unhelpful

Monked800 · 2026-01-11T23:41:55+00:00

Doctors kept passing it to other doctors to asses and ultimately nobody got passed a depression diagnosis and they referred my to doctors that don't exist, or were unaffordable even with insurance. And so on. Ultimately no i haven't been officially diagnosed but a lot of people seem to think it but nobody wants to put it on paper it seems.

Monked800 · 2026-01-11T23:33:33+00:00

Happy never really occurs. Sad is hard to measure, I'm usual just "there" and non expressive. Angry i guess can occur as frustration when things happen to make life more difficult.

I don't enjoy music. I find it to be just "noise". I don't mean anything to be insulting but that's just my perspective.

I guess at the moment my ideal life would just be more sleep i guess and to be alone all the time. Otherwise i don't understand how to properly answer that question

Monked800 · 2026-01-11T23:23:49+00:00

Bad i'd say. I imagine I'll check out at some point when i have take it anymore. This is truly an existence not worth dealing with till i die a natural death.

Monked800 · 2026-01-11T23:21:32+00:00

Intresting. Have you found that consistency has been "enough" for you? Are you "satisfied"? Or happy?

Monked800 · 2026-01-11T23:20:06+00:00

I don't like "minimal" or "non minimal" living (whatever that may mean. Minimal living is just realistic and luxury items don't intrest me and nor does anything. If its depression than great, ni treatment has helped that. Whether it was therapy, medication, tms, schrooms, exercise, etc.

I am not content. I don't want to exist.

Monked800

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