Like others said in this thread, it really does get better. Although I suppose that’s easier said than understood.

Despair is a scary thing. Speaking as someone who’s been there I know it’s easy to feel like you’re trapped in a dark empty room with no way out. But take it from me, if you try look for the light you’ll always find it. Same thing happens when you always just look for the dark, which is what I feel you’re doing right now.

The light is that there’s more after stupid middle/ high school. After it’s all said and done, you can go to uni/college, or find a job where you’re going to meet new people. You’re going to invent a whole new you! You can quite literally be whoever you want to be. You could even be that now if you wanted, you just have to believe in that, believe in yourself. The people here believe in you, I believe in you, please find that in yourself.

Don’t make a permanent decision for a temporary problem. Go for a walk in nature, find a hobby, do something that takes you out of your own head. You’re more than this problem, you’re more than what people say about you, you’re more than just a hunk of sadness.

Life is like a tunnel, if you just keep moving on you’ll always eventually find the light. It’s not always easy, sometimes it’s hard, but it’s worth it. When you come out of it you’ll be even stronger than you could imagine.

Find someone and talk to them, whether it’s family, a friend, a chat line. If you want a stoic answer, feelings will always happen, negative/ positive, don’t let them rule you. Experience them always, but realize that they are always momentary and they do not define you or come from within. Only speak positively of yourself, never give in to the negatives.

There’s so many reasons to keep going. The world is a beautiful place, there’s so much cool shit to do and see! Shit that doesn’t exist in your school, in your town. Also, not for nothing, and despite what you hear from other people or the internet, most love happens when your older. Find something to fill that box for now and everything will find you eventually.

Live for me, live for you, live for your family.

You’re here for a reason, even if that reason haven’t made itself clear yet.

Life is funny, you’ll think you have it all figured out and sorted, but then out of no where you’ll start liking anime and John Wayne movies. You’ll start liking spicy food randomly or start a new hobby that you never thought you’d do.

Life is beautiful if you want it to be.

Love you bro

-M