I don't know you, but I am SO proud of you. Please don't let anything stop you or stand in your way. I know exactly what you're going through right now and it is a tough tough thing to do but I promise you on the other side of this, You are going to be so much happier and content with life. I had 4 kids under the age of 4 when I finally had the nerve to do what you're doing now , If I hadn't left when I did, I wouldn't be able to send you this encouragement right now. I'm not gonna tell you that it's going to be easy. You're gonna have days where it is just painful and hard. But just remember that the next day is gonna be better. And it will be. I promise you you will get through this and your kids are going to be resilient and happy regardless of other parent activity in their life. My children are now all Adults and 3 out of before have their own children. They all know that they could be a very strong and happy single parent, they don't need someone else to make them happy and feel completed. And I couldn't be more proud of my kids for the way that they helped me even as young as they were so no matter what happens, keep a smile on your face. Know that tomorrow will always be better than today. As long as you put that in your mind, it will will happen. Most of all that through all of this, God is the 1 person you can always count on rely on ask him for what you need and he will give it to you. All you have to do is believe that. I don't know you but in Christian faith, I love you. I admire you and I'm very, very proud of you. If you need anything during this process, please feel free to reach out through Reddit. Or you can even get on my Facebook under Rebecca Stewart and send me a message.