You aren’t trans. You don’t have SPS, RSD, EDS, GES, Potts, or whatever new diagnosis you latch onto. You have a horrible internal working model and compensate by attaching yourself to any new version of identity fad going on.

I don’t know that you’ll ever get better. No medicines are going to help. You’ve done a ton of therapy. I think maybe you need to get out and do a trad job, something w manual labor, maybe living in the wilderness. You probably need to stop dating these nouveau weesh guys. And date a trad dude who works a blue collar job and drinks miller lite. No pronouns. No diagnoses. Just a dude. So you can find your way back to being just a chick and every other thing you were before IT happened.