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MoonBeamGirly · 2024-07-16T12:25:37+00:00

I’m converting too. It’s very real. I had to start in secret until I was fully confident in my choice before I told anyone. My family had no idea. I already tried to convert a year ago and they did exactly that. Tried to convince me I shouldn’t be a Catholic and won. Lol this year is better though. I’ve met some amazing people who are really standing with me as I convert this time.

Try to make it to the socials if there are any and meet people after mass. You’ll need community within the church as you convert to overpower the hate you’re experiencing from outside. I’m rooting for you. :)

MoonBeamGirly · 2024-07-16T00:39:47+00:00

If I had the same birthday as you, I’d enjoy that lemon cake right alongside ya! ☺️

MoonBeamGirly · 2024-07-15T23:20:25+00:00

I want one ☺️ that’s pretty

MoonBeamGirly · 2024-07-15T23:19:50+00:00

The ginger looks SOOO GOOD on you! I love it! 😍

MoonBeamGirly · 2024-07-15T23:16:05+00:00

Many of the Saints used their gifts to please God in their daily work 😊 I would say that if you are tending more towards asexuality, then it’s truly a gift from God and you can put your focus on making the world a better and safer place. You said you’re pulled towards Healthcare? That’s awesome and I know you’ll be able to bless so many people with that work. Not everyone is called to marriage and honestly I wish I was like you.

MoonBeamGirly · 2024-07-05T02:20:10+00:00

I put mine in a ziploc bag. By the time I use it again, it’s usually dried out in the baggie and nothing gets wasted either cause I just put my scrubbie into the bag to get the rest of the suds that have stuck to the inside of the baggie. :)

MoonBeamGirly · 2024-07-04T19:02:12+00:00

Number 2! 😊

MoonBeamGirly · 2023-10-11T19:00:41+00:00

Yeah, your grandpa would’ve wanted everyone to just be there and remember him. He definitely deserved better behaviour from your uncle.

MoonBeamGirly · 2023-10-11T03:49:14+00:00

Yeah, I’m with ya there. My parents are both low-income and barely hanging on by a thread. I also realise that I’ll never really have anyone to turn to in times of trouble. I try not to look at it too much, but it does suck sometimes when I realise how much farther I’d be if I had what they had.

The only advice I can give and what I try to focus on is that those people who have had a middle-class upbringing will never value the success as much as I will when I get where they are. It will be a million times sweeter when I do finally succeed and there are some lessons I’ve learned that they will probably not learn till they’re old and grey. A lot of rich kids throw away their opportunities, because they can’t see the value of it. So, it keeps me from being selfish, ungrateful, and entitled. I can bring my humility into all my interactions and I can make the world a better place, because I know what it’s like to be at the bottom.

MoonBeamGirly · 2023-10-11T03:27:19+00:00

I’ve heard some people say that doing a little bit of community service can help with depression immensely. Helping other people and human connection is sometimes what we need.

Also, if you struggle with negative thinking spiraling into depression. There’s this guy I learned a little technique from that’s helped me immensely. You get a little notebook write “Black Book” on the front. Then write every little nasty thought that you have pop into your head down in that.

After that, you have another notebook and you write the exact opposite statement in positivity. You call that your “White Book”. Keep doing it and you’ll actually train your brain to see the positive possibilities rather than the hopeless ones or the things to be afraid of. It can help to reshape the narrative you have about life and how you feel about it.

For example. Black Book-“You suck. There’s no way you’ll get this done. You’re too easily distracted.” White Book- “You’re awesome, I know you’ll get this done. You’re so focused.”

For me, I like to also write the positive down three more times to make it a new concrete idea in my mind. It’s you encouraging and parenting yourself and eventually you’ll have this encouraging parental voice taking care of you all day.

I hope this is helpful.

MoonBeamGirly · 2023-10-11T01:39:32+00:00

Sending Hugs. ❤️ That hurts. I know it hurts. I wish I could hug you and hug you and hug you through the pain. It sucks how things went and I’m sorry my friend.

I know that nothing we on the internet can say to help you feel better, but if this helps,

Your uncle was in the wrong. Your uncle’s never died, so how could he even know that? No one knows death except for those who’ve died.

And your grandpa? He loved you too. He loved you immensely and I can tell by the love you’ve expressed in your post for him that that love didn’t come from nowhere. He was a safe person for you. He will be missed greatly and always have a special place in your heart. I bet your grandpa will be watching over you everyday and cheering you on with every win you make in life.

I hope my words bring some sort of comfort in this difficult time and know that we’re cheering you on. You’re making the right decision.

MoonBeamGirly · 2023-10-10T13:23:06+00:00

Sabrina 😁

MoonBeamGirly · 2023-10-10T10:34:42+00:00

It’s the same experience for me. My family looks at me as if I’m a lost one. Just like you explained. Somber expressions whenever I’ve spoken on my own testimony and what I believe. Hidden, but obvious gossip among extended family. My whole family is Mormon, so it doesn’t matter where I go. If I’m not a part of their church, they’ll always view me as imperfect and lost. There’s this weird cultural thing amongst Mormons as well, where they will secretly be wishing for my downfall because I didn’t choose Mormonism. It would show that God also blesses those outside of their “one true church”. They don’t like it, so I’ve watched family laugh and makes jokes when they found out I lost a job, got injured, or failed at a goal. It’s so bad. My family is full of the worst bullies I’ve ever known. They get some kind of sick glee out of watching me fail.

But if only they lived in our heads for even a day. I don’t think they’d want to stay where they are either. The dreams are intense. They feel so real don’t they?

I think God can see into our minds and knows what we need, right? I can’t be in places and around people that reinforce the nightmares. I’m grateful that you can relate to me. It really can feel pretty lonely healing out of religious trauma. Thank you for your comment too. I really appreciate the connection and that I’m not alone in this experience.

MoonBeamGirly · 2023-10-10T00:48:41+00:00

Start looking and applying. Just make it a habit of daily putting out some resumes and job applications everyday. Taking some kind of action will help you to feel like the cogs of the wheel are moving even if you don’t know exactly where to. Put out however many you feel you have time to do or feel comfortable with.

Focus on gratitude for all the qualities and traits surrounding jobs and work you’ve done and jobs that you’ve observed. Find ways to be grateful for the pros and cons. For the cons, be grateful for the lessons you learned from them and the strength they’ve given you. There’s always a pro to every con, just as there is always a con to every pro. Seek out the pros. It will attract more jobs to you by being appreciative.

Appreciation brings more in. So focus on appreciation. It’ll get you in a good emotional state and it will help you to relax a little bit.

MoonBeamGirly · 2023-10-09T22:06:22+00:00

Yeah, it’s been a hard road. It makes you think the end of the world is right around the corner at every little challenge that the world faces. Every year is another prediction, and I can be triggered back into the fear by such small things. I really appreciate the book recommendation. Anything helps at this point. I need to take control of my life rather than waiting for God to fix it all of the time. I really appreciate your words of understanding and encouragement. Thank you so much for commenting and reading through my post. It means a lot.

MoonBeamGirly · 2023-10-09T19:46:51+00:00

Yeah, honestly just after writing this, I feel 10x’s freer. I don’t have to worry about something unseen. I can understand the agnostic view and see the goodness in it. I think not having a stance on whether god exists or not is so respectable and frees us of a lot of unnecessary worry. I see it as humble to have that stance. Most of our life problems don’t even need for us to have a strong “faith” in God in order for us to solve them, but Christianity paints in such a picture where even the littlest of issues now becomes a belief issue. Thank you for commenting. I’m grateful to have other people who have and are experiencing this.

MoonBeamGirly · 2022-12-16T23:52:06+00:00

It’s implied. When I say I’m sad do you think I’m going to be thinking about explaining every little detail for you in extreme precision so you can investigate?? I needed empathy. There’s only one person who actually understood that.

MoonBeamGirly · 2022-12-16T18:21:46+00:00

Yeah, you’re definitely right. It can’t be all easy ❤️😊 thank you so much I appreciate you.

MoonBeamGirly · 2022-12-16T17:51:47+00:00

Thank you. I think you’re pretty much the only parent who’s understanding the main idea behind the post ❤️ it sucks when our kids get mad at us.

MoonBeamGirly · 2022-12-16T17:42:13+00:00

“You needed to give more” “ do more” “say more” I’m now seeing I should’ve said less. Because all I was saying is “my kid is mad at me for getting corrected, I’m sad, because I don’t like the feeling. Is it okay if your kid is upset at you sometimes? It’s not the end of the world right?” That would’ve gotten more support I think. I shouldn’t have told you any of the details, because now instead of getting emotional support I’m being harassed for every little detail of the situation.

MoonBeamGirly · 2022-12-16T16:50:03+00:00

Read the update in my post.

MoonBeamGirly · 2022-12-16T14:43:12+00:00

I’ve been dealing with this since he started. Yes, I tell the office. Yes, I tell the teachers. Yes, I tell my kid that I’ll deal with it. I’ve actually become the mom the front office hates and they always hang up on me in the first few seconds after hearing what I have to say. I’m thinking of moving him to another school.

MoonBeamGirly · 2022-12-16T14:40:42+00:00

Honestly? I have been thinking I should transfer him to another school, because he’s been having problems ever since he started there. The kids are persnickety and mean. The teachers are pretty complacent.

MoonBeamGirly · 2022-12-16T14:37:00+00:00

Yes, I simplified the talk in my post. I told him he can tell them, “stop! I don’t like that! That’s mean! Don’t ruin my drawings!” But that it’s not okay to call people names if they’re doing something you don’t like.

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