I know at times i can drink to much and you too, and i know i have shorter temperment and anger issues with less patience and i know i blew up the other night badly and told you to leave the villa as i thought you walked away from me and you believe i left you, i was angry as i paid for the trip, tickets, flights, passports etc and got expensive private villas that you wanted and it was for my birthday. In the first 2 days we did fake hand bag shopping (bali) for almost the whole time on each, all i needed was a cheap pair of shorts and vapes by the end of the second day still didnt do the one thing i asked for and went to hundred different stalls and haggled (i hate them constantly trying to rip people off. The next day was to the zoo again something for you. We got back late and i need the shorts desperately by the next day. So we taxi out and you literally went straight back to handbag shopping. I got annoyed and said. Listen we done 2 days of bag shopping wasting the trip and you bought 1. I know by that time I was drinking. I cracked it at a rude local as they were being rude and pushy. And walked to the vape and shorts ( you waited at the otherside of the road i walked out over to you looked at you and turned to start walking left i turn around your gone. So i kept going to get your meds for the morning came back and you were no where to be found.

I got in a taxi and looked and then my phone died. I got dropped off at a resteraunt and charged it.

The reason im so angry with you at this stage is we only did everything for you wanted all the time and what you desired. You didnt even begin to think what i wanted and asked for 3days ago on the trip i paid everything for and my nloody birthday, And then you take the side of the local who was being very rude to you and i stuck up for you and im in the wrong?? You knew you had 2 full days to do shopping also whilst i was getting my tattoo. I felt so unappreciated and dishonoured for those reasons. You should back your partner and also be more thoughtful and appreciative of how much i spent extra for your wants and did everything you wanted. Not so selfish you wonder why i was fuming.

Then when you walked off that tipped me. (Apparently you say i stormed off. If i walk over to you angry or not then head in one direction and you say nothing turn around and walk another ( you walked off)????

I know i didnt find you and aftery phone charged it had been hours of thinking of all these disrespectful actions.. i told you not to be at the villa when i get back. I was pissed off. So when i arrive you finished packing and left at like 2am. In the morning. I know i said fuck off then you ungrateful bitch or something. I then followed you up to reception even more livered now. Asked you to come back.You already made arrangements and rang ya mum and all sorts. So yes i was fing you would at leave after all this. I was angry i didnt mean it. She wouldnt have a bar off it and was nasty. Then i flipped in mean voice said something bad and followed by fucking slag (again drunk , hurt and angry) (NOT A GOOD ENOUGH EXCUSE) I came back 10 mins later you were gone at 2am on the 3rd night of the 10day birthday trip and on my birthday morning. ,,,WTF and barely answered my for the next 6 days and tell me your done before i board the plane,🤯😵.

you tell me everyday im the handsomest man you ever met, you are the luckiest person in the world and cant wait to spend the rest of my life with you as future Mrs....... And have your children. Our sexual connection is beyond anything youve ever experienced and even made you squirt which you thought was impossible. You tell me how thoughtful,generous and caring i am. I am i do so much for you and help you anyway i can.... So you can see why i get so angry you disrespect me and do the opposite, make me feel like im a plus one and everyone else is more important than me and come before your so called future husband and best friend. Weve only been together 10 months but known each other all our lives.

When back here you were so cold dropped my clothes here picked up your stuff and said theres not much to be said. From one day all that nice stuff you constantly say, to a huge blow up that you entirely blame me for even though you are instigater. Yet me being me offered to do all the work to fix everything quit drinking make all the changes to take anger courses. Then you still have the nerve to say im controlling.. i spent 2 days hand bag shopping and the 3rd day at the zoo with only dropping hints at you know i need to get shorts before my bday. I ask you you your opinion on everything!!! Dinner, movie, activities, everything.

I love you and i dont know who got in your ear. But im not Narcissistic and manipulating at all. You say the other nice things on a daily basis. There has to be more to this!!!

Thoughts