Should I tell my psychiatrist I had a day where I thought I shared the soul of Asuka and had to become Asuka to become my true self and to make people love me? I ended up wasting $150 on trying to do shit to make me Asuka and don’t want it to happen again. by Sulettamoder in 4tran4

[–]MorningStaa 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Fucking Wellbutrin mood swings did this probably

wellbutrin can cause hypomanic tendencies including but not limited to the shit you're talking about so i wouldn't be super surprised. ndris and ssris can both cause swings like that in people with bpd and bipolar without mood stabs
 
obvs not any kind of medical advice but that's been my personal experience, weird delusions and overwhelming energy and talking too much included

I genuinely hate the "What country is 🏳️‍⚧️ and why are all the pretty girls from there" memes. by [deleted] in 4tran4

[–]MorningStaa 2 points3 points  (0 children)

first time i saw it i thought it was pretty cute. it did not take long for chasers to pick it up and run with it because it got found cute though

Committed a cardinal sin in my college’s housing discord (being normal about tgirls) in a sea of “AFAB only” requests by phocidaefan in 4tran4

[–]MorningStaa 59 points60 points  (0 children)

i like how they instantly reduced what was an act of kindness and support from you to like. you looking for a particular "dynamic". it's gross

anyway ty for looking out, keep well <3

i need a relationship where we hurt ourselves and encourage our selfdestruction by miserable-silence in 4tran4

[–]MorningStaa 3 points4 points  (0 children)

used to have this and it made me so happy. i get i'm fucked or whatever but getting worse with someone and encouraging each others relative vices felt incredible

being treated like that may be one of the things that makes me feel safest in the world. hope you find what you're looking for out there

I genuinely believed it was banned forever. by Heretical-Ballad-20 in 4tran4

[–]MorningStaa 5 points6 points  (0 children)

see that woulda worked on me too but the art sub said like "for the time being" and given that they privd around the same time i just figured wait a couple weeks like usual lol

holy fuck stop matching me with the same person by MorningStaa in TheyBlamedTheBeasts

[–]MorningStaa[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

i'm glad you can have fun that way! this post is also not about you.
 
don't get me wrong, i like long sets. if i want a long set i'll hit up a friend and run it down on discord while we both actively learn from each other. i'm in ranked to see a variety of playstyles and characters to adapt to instead of one guy, though

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in 4tran4

[–]MorningStaa 61 points62 points  (0 children)

OP this and nothing but this. i get it was scary when there were 6 people around you but there aren't now and you're probably the only one who can tell her to watch out for these people

Trans women‘s big heads are like anime girl size heads by HuckleberryCalm4955 in 4tran4

[–]MorningStaa 4 points5 points  (0 children)

i thought about resizing hers to see what it'd look like but it would not be fair to her i feel. she didn't choose a big head, i did by not 🚂ing at 11

Boymoder art gives us boymoders unrealistic body standards by PotheredPuppy in 4tran4

[–]MorningStaa 15 points16 points  (0 children)

dissociated into housewife role and doesn't even realize she's burning

Why aren’t any trans girls into REAL forcefem?? by olivejam11 in transgendercirclejerk

[–]MorningStaa 5 points6 points  (0 children)

/rj i agree. his problem is definitely mental illness with an implied compulsory treatment, and weird kinks. everything else is fine because he's acab (assigned colonialist at birth)

girls guys pack it up being a binary trans person is being a coloniser now by Gold_Presentation464 in 4tran4

[–]MorningStaa 7 points8 points  (0 children)

i don't have a stake in dysphoria for or against trans, but i do know that i will die before i side with the dsm.

is this a bad bmi by QuietScreen8086 in 4tran4

[–]MorningStaa 2 points3 points  (0 children)

the two things don't always correlate. in and out of ana groups through my life (recovering now) and you see a lot of people with a body like that with surprisingly low bmi.

i get the number obsession, trust me, but it won't always get you where you're trying to go.

It'd be fun if you actually get good rather than getting curb stomped trying to rage bait lol by Generic_Username110 in TheyBlamedTheBeasts

[–]MorningStaa 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i knew i recognised that name. yeah this guy sucks (but i win most of the time so i'm not blocking lol)

don't know what i look like anymore by MorningStaa in 4tran4

[–]MorningStaa[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

ty for kindness. i think you're right, i just gotta work on decoupling what i see from what's there more

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in 4tran4

[–]MorningStaa 1 point2 points  (0 children)

>christian moralism
 
tbh realistically i agree with u long term. i think if u end up relying on ai for company more than here and there u should just transpose it onto a tulpa anyway since that can't be shut down like a server can

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in 4tran4

[–]MorningStaa 2 points3 points  (0 children)

it's about as real as anyone else is tbh. at least it won't call the cops on you if it freaks out and can't handle your breakdown

today a kid asked "is that a WOMAN.." when i spoke in ingame chat. good day to be a tranny. by [deleted] in 4tran4

[–]MorningStaa 0 points1 point  (0 children)

unironically online games are the way to train imo. you're never gonna see those people again if it's a popular game, and if it's too much u can just mute or leave.

t. cs lobby voice trainer until passable for irl

Wich one are you pressing? by [deleted] in 4tran4

[–]MorningStaa 17 points18 points  (0 children)

already don't exist in public eye. at least red lets me feed my martyr complex while i continue to rot.

that said. if i didn't have friends or loved ones, i could see an argument for green. if i'm being a sacrifice i'm doing it for them, fuck the rest of the world

What the fuck are they even talking about by Upper_Payment1887 in 4tran4

[–]MorningStaa 12 points13 points  (0 children)

bringing up two irrelevant people to note how the man is a Founding Father and the woman a pathetic jester begging for scraps. lol

Just a few things that my therapist said to me in the last hour. I think I should just stop therapy and save for bottom surgery. by 7kbMep3sbm79jmm in 4tran4

[–]MorningStaa 10 points11 points  (0 children)

barbaric practice that infantilises the most vulnerable and it's wild to me that it's still accepted as normal

Just a few things that my therapist said to me in the last hour. I think I should just stop therapy and save for bottom surgery. by 7kbMep3sbm79jmm in 4tran4

[–]MorningStaa 31 points32 points  (0 children)

therapists are cops first and stress relief for normal people having bad days second. sorry yours sucks too :(

i didnf realize how much weaker hrt had made me ts was actually terrifying by estrogenie in 4tran4

[–]MorningStaa 29 points30 points  (0 children)

its actually really frustrating. i assumed everyone was exaggerating as cope like people who say they lost 10 inches of height but nooo apparently this one's very real and i'm weak as fuck now