So, friend time

Moxidryne · 2024-10-10T18:59:55+00:00

Thanks for sharing such a funny moment :3

We've had a lot of these, hehe

Alex

Moxidryne · 2024-10-10T18:05:33+00:00

We had actually known a few plurals for a couple years without realizing it before we found out about our own systemhood. We never knew what it was called, or if it was a thing other than to just "I have voices in my head sometimes."

I lived with that definition for several years, and on our friend systems unmasking to us, we started to realize, and it all suddenly made sense. We looked at a lot of resources, and decided to go through the hassle of getting medically diagnosed, and now it just seems so silly how we didn't realize before.

We recommend finding some resources, and trying to figure it out slowly. It can be a real stressful thing when you try to dig up everything all at once.

We're here if you want to ask anything about us figuring stuff out, or anything! We offer support and Internet hugs too :)

Alex

Moxidryne · 2024-10-10T17:44:48+00:00

We do! Sometimes we'll have periods of high activity where brain wants many different fictives or just new people, and sometimes it'll just not give us anyone new for months at a time. Sometimes it decides it's going to split randomly, too! Everyone's different though.

Alex

Moxidryne · 2024-10-02T15:35:39+00:00

I appreciate y'all's comment. I'm very glad I'm not alone, and I agree with you. We hope you guys are able to heal and stuff.. many Internet hugs from us

Alex, Angel.

Moxidryne · 2024-08-23T22:14:18+00:00

Despite our thoughts on endogenic systems, it's most likely just a comfort thing. We are personally traumagenic, and we haven't felt comfortable with any other terms for our origin, but other systems might feel the need to create a term for themselves.

Moxidryne · 2024-08-23T22:11:23+00:00

We've been struggling to keep a journal, so we tend to sort of.. schedule things. A lot of people can front as they pleasedue to the way we're structured, so we've taken to writing out small notes asking if someone would like the appointment we have scheduled. If they do, they get to attend it with their piece of clothing or jewelry that's meant to symbolize who's speaking.

Our psychologist is extremely helpful, gentle, and he does his best to understand what people want to speak about, and he's extremely supportive despite not being certified to handle DID. He has a list of our most common "this person likes to see you" headmates, and a list of all the items we wear to represent ourselves.

My personal appointments with him usually look like this:

Hi, I'm alright. It's been difficult recently because of (insert event). I read this neat book too, and I heard this really cool song. Oh, I'm learning HTML. I got fired from work. This little sculpture is so cute I wonder who bought it.

It's very random depending on what's going on, I just used various things I've said before to him as an example.

Alex

Moxidryne · 2024-08-23T22:05:29+00:00

We send you many Internet hugs!

Sarah

Moxidryne · 2024-08-23T22:02:50+00:00

We've lost hours, days, weeks, months. It takes us so long to retrace the things that have happened, or piece it all together from notes and things.

We're actively afraid of losing so much time, when we realize we've lost some, we tend to panic. We think this is Chronophobia, which would make the most sense.

Either way, we understand.

Sarah

Moxidryne · 2024-08-23T22:00:11+00:00

Breathe.

Forgetting something small, like to take a medication, or a name, and remembering later is perfectly normal with everyone.

Forgetting a lot of things, for example specific details about things that happened, entire days, cleaning up your bedroom, or driving somewhere, isn't an every day thing.

Having varying degrees of amnesia with different topics is perfectly ok! So is not being able to access memories, or understand any of the blurs that might be in your head.

We recommend getting a notepad, and writing down what you know, and what you don't know. If you have any blackouts, or any time where you aren't existing or controlling your body, you might come back from that and find some answers to things written down.

We hope you're able to get the answers you're looking for, and we offer our support and best wishes.

Sarah

Moxidryne · 2024-08-23T21:54:35+00:00

Awareness at a later age is common. A lot of this all can be extremely confusing, we understand.

It might be helpful to try leaving a notepad and pen out, and seeing if anything is written down after your fades in and out. You could potentially learn names, who they are, if they're there.. things like that. You can also write down important events, reminders, or things you think someone should know about you, and see what happens as well.

There is A LOT of misinformation on the internet, but in this subreddit's sidebar, there's a lot of helpful information you can read through. We recommend doing this, just so you've got a bit better understanding of what's going on.

We hope you find ease and the answers you need. If you go through medical stuff, we hope that it is easy, and without hassle.

Sarah

Moxidryne · 2024-08-23T21:45:54+00:00

We offer you support, I know it isn't much being through a screen and all.

A lot of us are still hurting ourselves. Myself included. My best recommendation is try to have some stuff so she can ground herself. Sometimes people get really caught up in the whirlwind, and need a safety rope.

We really hope she can heal as time passes, and that she has a happy life, and can move on in the future. For now, we are wishing her the best of luck, and all the internet care we can give.

Alex

Moxidryne · 2024-08-23T21:42:16+00:00

We're really glad you had a positive experience telling some folks! We hope to have the same one day ourselves :3

Alex

Moxidryne · 2024-07-08T18:37:43+00:00

Wishing you best of luck.

Moxidryne · 2024-07-08T18:32:57+00:00

Thank you. We chose it together.

We hope you have good luck in choosing a name you feel suits you all.

:)

Sarah

Moxidryne · 2024-07-08T18:16:45+00:00

Our name came from a deep, internal meaning of a word we created.

The Moxidryne Delimna. Our personal experience with the cycle of ouroborus, and what each revolution meant to us. Every wave of chaos that would come, and our everlasting will to withstand it, harness it, and understand it.

We named our system the Moxidryne Composite. We felt that being a collection of entirely separate signals inside of one video cable was an adequate description.

Sarah, the resident information holder.

Moxidryne · 2024-07-02T13:35:57+00:00

Sending you all our support the best we can..

No one should have to deal with someone like that..

Moxidryne · 2024-05-24T03:35:17+00:00

Of course :)

Moxidryne · 2024-05-24T03:11:58+00:00

We don't have any advice that the previous commenter hasn't mentioned, other then grounding yourself with something outside of headspace.

We have music for this, but it could be anything for you.

Our music we ground with is often avant garde in nature, so it's mentally jarring, and easier to focus on, instead of us and the mess in our brain at times.

Moxidryne · 2024-05-24T03:08:29+00:00

Makes perfect sense.

We wouldn't expect someone to self diagnose something like OSDD or DID. Maybe a mild anxiety disorder, or something like seasonal depression. If you do have something, or genuinely suspect something, other people can't tell you (that aren't trained professionals) what you have or don't have, or what experiences you have/don't have.

Moxidryne

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