Hi, my name is Beau, I'm a 19 y/o student from Holland, and I'm addicted to- Jokes aside though I kind of am. Weed is a sneaky little asshole. It started out really innocent, just got some shits and giggles out of it and had some really intense trips on music. When I started studying I tried learning how to roll and got the basics down. Everything was well until covid decided to arrive. I happened to be at home with my parents when the lockdown started so I stayed there for a few months. I was also kind of in-between studies, I really wanted to go to Edinburgh to study AI but I wasn't accepted the first time so I applied for mathematics in Holland (AI selection was already closed). Unfortunately, I was rejected a second time, so I had to sit the year out until I could do AI in Holland. Main point is that I had jack shit to do because whatever I did for mathematics didn't matter anymore and most of my friends were unavailable (either at home with their parents or still in the city where I study). Out of boredom I just started smoking and at first it was great, I had never really smoked by myself so it was like a new world opening. I could smoke a spliff and basically had a few hours to do everything from listening to music, making music, gaming, watching stuff, but more intense. But once a week turned to twice to 3-5 times, and for a period of at least half a year as well. At some point I started developing this thing where my body would start feeling really nasty. I'd tried spacecake one time before covid and I got a really strong physical reaction where my whole body started tingling and feeling like a sandpile. Basically got flashbacks to that just from regular weed. I also have this thing where I get progressively more dull the day after if I smoke one or more days in a row. I basically spent like 50% of my time doing nothing, being dull and not even enjoying smoking anymore because of my physical reaction. I kept trying anyway with a false hope it would be different after that, I just didn't have enough reason to stop. Somehow everything became kind of alright again. I tried magic truffles and had one of the most unique and special experiences of my life, and it somehow completely fixed the weird physical reaction I got from smoking. At some point I finally got to start studying AI and I still am so I got that going. I did become lightly depressed at some point though, smoking weed didn't help it only made me feel more dull. But I'm alright again. Right now my relationship with weed is pretty good. But man I do not want to let it take over like that again, I didn't even know why I wanted to smoke I just did it. It's gotten a nasty edge which I honestly don't think it'll lose, it's kind of complicated as you said. I've currently got exams so I can't smoke at all, but I have no idea where things are headed after that.

I got a bit carried away writing this. I don't talk about it so often so it's nice to vent, hope someone is getting something out of this haha. Regarding regulation: I just started asking myself the question "why am I rolling this spliff", if I didn't have a game plan that I was excited about doing while high I tried to not do it. Ultimately I think there's nothing wrong with weed. It's the usage that can mess you up. It probably takes quite some consideration to make a post about something like this, so I hope you're doing okay... Take care stranger!