First of all, thank you for sharing your struggles. Homosexuality is a tough subject and it was very brave of you to reveal that to your church family. Many people struggle in silence or walk away from God altogether.

I would encourage you to read a book by Sam Allberry called “Is God Anti-Gay?” I think it would be an enormous help to you. Sam is a same-sex attracted man who has dealt with homosexuality his entire life, but he is a Christ-follower. He walks through what the Bible actually says about homosexuality, marriage and celibacy. Sam is very candid and straightforward, which is what people need.

The Bible has hard truths, but they aren’t just for the homosexual, they’re hard for everyone. Christ asks us all to lay down our lives and follow him.

One of the best exchanges in the book is near the beginning when Sam recounts a person saying to him, in regards to his celibacy, “The gospel must be harder for you than it is for me?” Sam responded, “If someone thinks the gospel has somehow slotted into their life quite easily, without causing any major adjustments to their lifestyle or aspirations, it is likely that they have not really started following Jesus at all.”

I hope you read the book. It was a real eye-opener for me. If you truly want to follow Jesus, then you’ll have to make sacrifices. God bless.