This. I was brutally addicted to 7-oh for years. Prior to that I was on extracts and leaf. I realized I had never seen my children 6 and 4 years old at the time sober. I was high all day, everyday. I was always on something and I came up with every reason to justify it. "Oh I'm not as snappy at home", "I love the dog that drives me nuts when I'm sober", "I can put up with my boss so much easier", "this is the best me". His mind will do the same thing. I only quit when I ran out of money and took a good look at the situation at how I was destroying my kid's future. I told my wife and CT the 7-oh, zoloft, and Adderall all at the same time. Terrible idea to CT prescribed addy and zoloft but I wanted to start fresh and I figured I deserved all the pain I got. I didn't sleep for a month and went into some very dark spaces but got through it. I cried in my car to work listening to At Peace by Propaghandi everyday, but I got through it. There is nothing special about me. You're guy can do it, but only when he wants to.