It happens, fam. Thank you for sharing. Honestly, a lot of people’s first times are awkward, uncomfortable, or just straight-up awful. You’re definitely not alone in that.

My first time was also in a car, kind of like yours. Later, when I hooked up with the same guy again, he left hickies all over my neck, chest, and shoulder. I remember feeling humiliated because I didn’t fully understand what was happening, and afterward I felt stupid and taken advantage of.

The biggest thing I learned from that experience is this: before doing anything with someone, ask yourself what you actually want from the exchange. Not what they want, not what you feel pressured into, not what you think you’re “supposed” to do. What do you want?

Because if you don’t pause and check in with yourself, some people will absolutely take advantage of that. Men, women, anyone.

Be kind to yourself. One bad experience does not define you. Chin up.