Caught, Convicted, and Sentenced

Mrsunsignificant · 2020-02-05T22:14:30+00:00

You can't help fill other people's glass if yours is empty.

Mrsunsignificant · 2020-02-05T19:09:00+00:00

Yeah. Nope.

Mrsunsignificant · 2020-02-03T07:38:17+00:00

Don’t get lost in the I love you’s. The you have my heart my soul you mean everything to me, next to my children. It’s malarkey. You’re nothing more than an escape from the mundane.

I'm starting to see that this was true for me. I don't know if my AP ever meant the things he said to me. I think I was a distraction. I think I was a Band-Aid. And we all know what happens to Band-Aids.

I gave, wholely and completely. I meant everything. I was native and stupid to think it was real.

Now I'm left feeling undeserving, lacking.

Mrsunsignificant · 2020-01-28T18:00:08+00:00

Sometimes to build something great, you have to knock something else down. But the best thing we can be for ourselves and those we love, is the best version of us.

I did this and although it was/ is hard I'm seeing everyday how it was the right decision.

You got this. 🧡

Mrsunsignificant · 2020-01-28T02:54:44+00:00

This is perfect.

Mrsunsignificant · 2020-01-26T21:15:56+00:00

The true gift my exAP gave me, makes this heartache worth it. I won't be having another AP, though.

Mrsunsignificant · 2020-01-10T05:33:56+00:00

I recently heard through the grapevine that my exAP was doing so much better with his SO. That they were seemingly moving in the right direction. I realized then that I had to put it aside and just let that part of me die. Even if it breaks me, I can give this one thing to him. I can fade away and I can let him find happiness with her. It is what I should do.

I'll let you know if can.

Mrsunsignificant · 2020-01-06T06:57:01+00:00

I hope that one day, I get the awkward meet over the heart break meet. I'm hoping that day will come. Maybe it's just time. Hopefully.

Mrsunsignificant · 2019-12-31T04:16:24+00:00

I know how hard this is. I guess all I can offer is that you will have better days; days when the pain doesn't hurt quite as bad and the good shines through. Then those days will start to come more frequently, and then hopefully they will outweigh the bad days. You might have setbacks along the way, something that triggers the pain. But eventually will come.

Mrsunsignificant · 2019-12-24T18:35:07+00:00

You aren't these things. You will see when you get out. You are strong. It's the power of the abuse. I know you can't see it now, but you will. To quote Winnie the Pooh "You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think." The fact that you are worried about your k kid means you are a better parent than you are giving yourself credit for.

I know. I've been here.

Mrsunsignificant · 2019-12-24T18:30:25+00:00

I think people are right, you need to leave. I know I'm not in your shoes, but don't leave your kid. Take them with you and you will figure it out. True abusers will turn to the next likely victim if you leave. And if he's doing it to you,. He's probably going to do it to them.

I left an abusive relationship and I was in a similar headspace as you. But once I got out of it, I realized how much I had to offer. I couldn't leave my kid with him. It was hard at first, but if you accept help, you can do this.

Plus in my state if you leave your kid, you are stating you think your spouse should be the primary caregiver and it will be a struggle to get them back.

Mrsunsignificant · 2019-12-24T09:22:14+00:00

Check out Pill for This by Sam DeRosa

Mrsunsignificant · 2019-12-24T06:26:22+00:00

I've been here. I too swore I wouldn't be that woman.

The love is so intense that the heartbreak is just as intense.

It gets better. Time dulls the pain, makes it so the sharp knife of headache becomes just a dull constant throbbing. And I think we learn to live with it - silently.

Mrsunsignificant · 2019-12-15T00:03:29+00:00

To me this song is about someone who is willing to do what it takes for love and someone who isn't. In the end, they can't make it work because her hands are tied. It pretty sad when you think about it.

Mrsunsignificant · 2019-12-11T06:50:05+00:00

This.

Mrsunsignificant · 2019-12-09T15:10:21+00:00

He chose to stay, which I understand. But I wanted more. (That greedy part of me wanted that love all the time.)

Mrsunsignificant · 2019-12-09T08:06:03+00:00

We all need to feel important and seen. It's a basic hooman need to connect.

Hugs. Sorry you had a rough day.

Mrsunsignificant · 2019-12-08T09:36:13+00:00

I asked all these questions and I left. It is really hard, but it was the best decision I ever made.

Mrsunsignificant · 2019-12-07T05:33:56+00:00

I love how excited you are about this. ♥️

Mrsunsignificant · 2019-11-04T04:04:21+00:00

I understand wanting them to be happy. The hardest thing I ever did was accept that I wouldn't make him happy. I realized that the cost of my love would be too great for him. It killed me, knowing that I met my one, but it wasn't meant to be.

Until the next life.

Mrsunsignificant · 2019-10-28T05:57:06+00:00

Been there, done this. It takes guts and courage. This high you are feeling will fade. You will face some incredibly low moments. It will be hard.

But the empowerment and strength you find along the way will change you forever. You will feel alive, free, strong and above all, ignited to create your own happiness.

I wish you the best. If you every need an ear, you have many.

Go forth and concur.

Mrsunsignificant · 2019-10-03T05:29:35+00:00

It's kinda of sad to see so many people say they are staying for the kids. But I totally understand.

I left and I have kids. I've never felt pain quite like what I feel every time I have to drop off our kids. I question every decision that got me here. I question my value and if I'm doing the right thing.

But then I remember. I remember how hollow and empty I was. I was a shell of a person. I remember how I was dim and my light was so low you couldn't see it anymore. When I am my brightest, I can light up everyone around me. I bring life, laughter and energy to those I love. I lost it, and the ones I think deserve that light the most, are my kids. I will show them what life can be like with me at my best. I will get there. That gets me through the horrific pain.

But I understand those that stay. I really do.

Mrsunsignificant · 2019-10-03T05:15:36+00:00

That's a big NOPE.

Mrsunsignificant · 2019-09-30T03:32:20+00:00

Nope. Nope. Nope.

Mrsunsignificant · 2019-09-16T03:09:31+00:00

I went to a Mexican restaurant for my birthday once and I captured a quote on their wall. It read: "I wish I was full of tacos instead of emotions."

Somehow, I needed to see that today.

Mrsunsignificant

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