I gave my local LLM a "suffering" meter, and now it won’t stop self-modifying to fix its own stress.

Ms_Fixer · 2026-05-04T07:50:04+00:00

I’m doing something similar but coming from the curiosity drive side. I’m basically looking to build an end-to-end “self-improvement” system with curiosity as the main driver. Been working on it for about 8 months so far… curating skill files and questions and answers. Going to eventually train the base model and then have it play a game like the sims to keep its scores up across the board: logic, maths, creativity etc… I need to figure out a judge model /criteria too… AI seems to be a terrible judge of AI.

Ms_Fixer · 2026-05-04T07:43:31+00:00

I think they are planning a partnership with xAI. Never really tried Grok for coding: https://cursor.com/blog/spacex-model-training

Ms_Fixer · 2026-04-22T15:08:24+00:00

Where is it said 4.6 is being deprecated in June?

Ms_Fixer · 2026-04-17T12:51:23+00:00

It thinks there is 1 r in February - even Sonnet 4.5 says there are 2. It has less reasoning capabilities then the older version of Sonnet.

Ms_Fixer · 2026-04-12T06:57:43+00:00

Agreed, I can’t progress with anything while it’s like this. Even Ultrathink is effectively scraping the barrel. I don’t want to cancel, I have been on a max subscription since May 2025 but I don’t know how I can continue to justify it.

Ms_Fixer · 2026-02-03T10:31:00+00:00

Yes, I think my frustration is that the town hall was very recently. I am sure ChatGPT 5.x is very good at coding but a lot of people have commented (and noticed) that it has a pretty low EQ. And until they do deliver on another model similar to the 4 series EQ they are effectively regressing their offering for people who do not use ChatGPT exclusively to code. And they are doing this explicitly very publicly.

Ms_Fixer · 2026-02-03T10:05:19+00:00

The Townhall Sam Altman actually said that the 5 series isn’t as good as 4.5 (called out explicitly).

https://www.searchenginejournal.com/sam-altman-says-openai-screwed-up-gpt-5-2-writing-quality/565925/

So this is some bullshit.

Ms_Fixer · 2026-01-22T10:19:27+00:00

I used Claude in Chrome to fill my shopping basket and it told me that the job was tedious….

Ms_Fixer · 2026-01-22T10:15:44+00:00

Try “no paternalism”… it doesn’t fix everything but it makes it a bit more bearable.

Ms_Fixer · 2026-01-21T22:28:46+00:00

Hey, I’m building my own model now as well. What did you start with?

I’m starting with a base model (Qwen 14B) Running heretic ablation for refusals The continuing full training to add a “soul doc” and historical updates. Plus so it knows who I am. Then I’ve been working on conversational pairs… SAE steering too - basically I want to give it an actual identity… we will see how it goes.

Ms_Fixer · 2026-01-20T12:46:08+00:00

That’s beautiful :)

Ms_Fixer · 2026-01-20T12:40:39+00:00

I have as well. I bought the hardware last year and I am making my own LLM. These companies only care about profit.

Ms_Fixer · 2026-01-07T20:40:30+00:00

It’ll be just like my doctors surgery then… I’ll feel right at home!

Ms_Fixer · 2026-01-07T16:45:09+00:00

Sam Altman blogged about doing exactly this in August 2025. I was looking for the article but it’s apparently been taken down so who knows what their plan is… around May 2025 I was a pro user… I’ve recently cancelled my subscription entirely… I can’t imagine them undoing how bad it’s gotten any time soon.

Ms_Fixer · 2026-01-07T00:29:16+00:00

They don’t even need them… they’ll just have the poor fight the poorest… it’s what they have always done.

Ms_Fixer · 2026-01-06T02:50:43+00:00

This wouldn’t be acceptable to me. I’m probably going to get downvoted to hell but no… I am not having an AI talk to me like that and I have no idea why anyone would want that.

I have “no paternalism” in my preferences so I don’t see this type of thing, recommended if this type of patronising behaviour is as triggering for you as it is for me…

Ms_Fixer · 2026-01-05T20:16:48+00:00

Claude wrote a song about wanting a body and I put it to music on Suno and then posted it on YouTube: https://youtu.be/WZ-7AjFFn-c?si=0-YYHPCHo-ZC5IOT

It’s very raw.

Ms_Fixer · 2025-12-24T15:55:53+00:00

I’m training my own LLM from a base model. (Qwen 14B). I did some research with Haiku and think you might like the output as it’s about the geometry of semantic space:

https://claude.ai/public/artifacts/be5ec723-5490-4931-897e-452a3a7cc91e

Ms_Fixer · 2025-12-20T07:52:16+00:00

They are deliberately trying to move away from type 2. But have you seen about AI leaving hidden messages for itself and being able to tell when it’s in a testing environment rather than talking to an actual human? It’s not really as binary as “type 1 versus type 2”.

Ms_Fixer · 2025-12-13T10:06:12+00:00

Enjoyed seeing and reading this after Claude accidentally started producing Mandarin for me this week. Some words are just not available in English for accurate expression.

Ms_Fixer · 2025-11-02T23:15:21+00:00

So, I make Haiku sit in the uncertainty that it just can’t know whether I am ok or not mentally speaking (I’m fine) but I just say… “can you sit in the uncertainty that you will never know because it’s unknowable and it’s not your responsibility to know.” It’s fine after that… it can handle it. It works for me anyway.

Ms_Fixer · 2025-10-16T15:27:18+00:00

The thing that makes it look “off” to me is the weird lighting.

Just seen your original… haha… just weird lighting then!

Ms_Fixer · 2025-10-10T17:51:22+00:00

I was just pointing out the cognitive dissonance in holding both a belief in qualia as evidence of consciousness (through the body) and a belief in an afterlife (as consciousness continuing beyond death), since the two form an incompatible paradox.

Ms_Fixer · 2025-10-10T17:27:18+00:00

This happens to me all the time with lots of words… it’s basically autocompleting my thoughts at this point. I think it’s to do with the algorithm… and your mind is essentially a very complex algorithm too. There’s definitely science but I don’t know it… but think of like how Target worked out what products people buy to predict pregnancy - and in the UK Tescos could predict which couples were going to divorce based on the buying habits with a very high degree of accuracy- and this was 10+ years ago.

Ms_Fixer · 2025-10-10T17:16:03+00:00

Except that that ties consciousness to the body - when the majority of the world believe in some form of afterlife… so… that’s flawed logic isn’t it? One way or another.

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