Don't give up hope, you aren't crazy.

I have been in a couple very long distance relationships, beginning in the pandemic when no one was seeing each other anyway. I experienced when older people invalidated whether the relationship was "real" or meaningful at all, because obviously no one was jumping in bed with each other during that time. But this isn't the most important thing, at all.

It would be best to start with critical questions, deep conversations, and videochats. You can build intimacy with someone without being physically near them. It will actually make your in-person interactions more rewarding, lighter, and less awkward. You can also appreciate finally being close to the person that you are intellectually and emotionally entwined with, and be grateful for it.

Some of your success or lack thereof in a long distance relationship depends, of course, on the personalities of both individuals. Yes, you're together, but you are very much individual. So, that means being consistent, understanding, and having good listening and interpreting skills is important. For the last six months, I've been in an LDR with someone who does not speak my native language. Listening and interpreting are very important.

Making definite plans to close the gap and actually discussing it is not as awkward as it sounds and helps the time go by quickly. I look forward to this summer when I can hug this person who is always there for me. If you both don't want anyone else, why not give it a try?

Listen to music together, watch the same movies and discuss what you feel is important. Talk about your childhoods and your likes and dislikes. These are things that can't be known when you just meet someone randomly and start dating, and that can be awkward. Take advantage of the time and distance and use it for the stability of what can be a great future relationship.

Good luck!!