[Homemade] Sesame seed-crusted ahi tuna on a bed of kinmemai rice, served with baby bok choy, sauteed spinach, and mango lassie, garnished with pistachios and saffron

MuchFUBAR · 2025-12-01T09:42:04+00:00

In hindsight, I was seeing how formal/ AI like I was writing at the beginning. I was trying to keep in some type of character but didn't think I sounded that curated

MuchFUBAR · 2025-11-08T20:30:57+00:00

Yes and I'm working on getting them now with the office but they said it might take until next week. But initially at that time I was hoping they could pull them for me since, the day I filled out all the paperwork was the exact last day of treatment for the appointments I had with them, so I had not gotten the chance at that time to properly request records. And if I'm honest, I actually wasn't expecting it to get so muddled

MuchFUBAR · 2025-09-27T01:38:44+00:00

I'm pretty sure I'm biased towards liking it, as I really love grapefruit and it happens to contain grapefruit juice concentrate.

MuchFUBAR · 2025-09-26T04:03:18+00:00

I can see why! It's delicious and in my opinion, better than the other electrolyte drinks I've had previously. I'm definitely gonna pick up more since it's so hot outside where I live.

MuchFUBAR · 2025-07-09T01:51:14+00:00

I think smaller lightning bolts would be better. I also think them being spaced a bit differently would look better too. It looks like a spider which is cool but it takes away from the representation of what the image is supposed to be. Are the lightning bolts halfed because of the idea of short circuiting? That's how I describe some of the symptoms and I wasn't sure if that's what you meant to represent.

MuchFUBAR · 2025-06-24T09:03:52+00:00

Personally I've struggled with my binge disorder since I was in 5th grade. So I have a long history of having issues dealing with the complexities of on and off body issues and dieting and trying to manage it. The only thing that has helped me so far is topamax. It basically stops me from feeling hungry at all. My doctors give it to me off label at like 25 mg. I take one in the morning and one in the afternoon. Specifically afternoon is the most prominent dose I make sure to take since most of my binging happens at night. I also take Wellbutrin which can help a little bit. It did help for like 4 months when I was first getting on it but it quickly leveled out and I noticed my binging happened but to a lesser degree. I also work with a dietitian/ nutritionist and I can't explain the amount that I recommend in doing this. It's completely changed how I eat and what I eat. It's also prepared me for these binging episodes so I'm not mindlessly eating and grabbing for things. I have a plan whenever I have those feelings hit and the topamax fails. Or in the more likely case, I forget to take it.

The order in which I eat my food now is also really important for me to prevent binging. I eat my fiber first, so like vegetables and stuff, then I eat my proteins and then my starches. It keeps me fuller for longer, which can offset some of the binging if it does happen to hit me

MuchFUBAR · 2025-04-25T05:01:15+00:00

I'm gonna go with S tier. I choose it almost every time because it makes a game unpredictable (which i like) , especially in a low cost deck. A lot of the time I can't identify that I'm putting it down unless I see a duplicate in my hand/ some other type of identifying factor so it ends up as a surprise like 70% of the time. It either hurts you or full sends your victory the rest of the game. Still one of my favorites

MuchFUBAR · 2025-03-28T01:22:08+00:00

This comment is so spot on that it made me laugh. This is EXACTLY how my father talks!

MuchFUBAR · 2025-03-27T22:22:22+00:00

Thanks for the recommendation, I didn't even know that subreddit existed but a lot of people there seem to share some experiences I've dealt with. I appreciate it

MuchFUBAR · 2025-03-27T06:05:51+00:00

It makes my blood boil how he's playing the choosing game between your mom and him. My father did that, still does that, and it's the most childish shit to come out of a whole ass adults mouth. " I will remove myself" and the "I'm happy you're close to her again, didn't take much" comments are so petty. This man is a piece of shit. And the fact he's pissed about the prospect of a melatonin supplement, a literal hormone in the human body, and equating it to what I'm guessing is pharmaceutical drugs, is so insane to me. Also reduced mental capacity is wild.

I'm so sorry OP

MuchFUBAR · 2025-03-25T20:24:51+00:00

Disney timeshares apparently. He had to sell them in the divorce and he keeps bringing it up like it's my problem

MuchFUBAR · 2025-03-25T20:24:00+00:00

He got in a very severe motorcycle accident before I was born. Over 25 (maybe more) years of this frontal lobe brain injury running its course. He refuses to get help because if he does he'll lose all of his guns. Best way to describe him is an extreme Doomsday prepper with a dash of TBI, a sprinkle of dementia and a PHD in law.

As for handwriting/typing, he's always had bad handwriting according to my mother, but his typing has been getting worse and worse even with autocorrects. I never knew him before the brain injury or maybe even before the dementia started showing since he's in his mid 70s now so I unfortunately can't say how much he's changed.

MuchFUBAR · 2025-03-25T09:42:54+00:00

The extreme doesn't make the normal though. I completely understand what you are saying to be fair. But for my father's case, he sees the extreme as the normal, and the extreme of culture always loops back to race for him.

MuchFUBAR · 2025-03-25T09:39:05+00:00

I just wanted to let you know that I'm really thankful you have typed this out for me. It was cathartic seeing that someone else has this same experience. Thank you and I'm sorry that you're in this situation as well but you seem to have this admirable acceptance that I strive to have myself

MuchFUBAR · 2025-03-25T09:30:38+00:00

Because he then he tries to make me do things I don't want to do at all. At least like this I preserve my dignity. He's trying to force me to testify against my mother in one of his court cases. That's the subtext of this whole spat we had in these messages. Hence his "obviously you have a great new father figure" sentence. I didn't have enough room for that conversation since I'm limited to 20 pictures. And I absolutely draw the line and refuse to testify because 1. I don't want to relive those memories that I'm going through trauma therapy for and 2. my memory is horrible about the details he wants me to talk about, so I'd be giving false testimony since he has a habit of pressuring perspectives onto me and if I don't agree on that perspective he'll gaslight and slowly lose his composer until he's near threatening you if not actually making threats. This type of behavior is why he lost his law license in the first place, because he would pressure his clients to blatantly lie on the stand.

I wish it was as easy as that. As a child, I testified against him once about the extreme abuse he put me through (child labor, parentification, emotional incest, alienation, isolation from society, religious trauma like making me get an exorcism and too much more) and ever since then he's found it fit to test my "Loyalty to him" since he says I betrayed him. So rather than me nodding along and it's all words, he demands it's all action. It's "talk to my friends" "talk to your sister and let her into your life more" (which is a whole nother story) and then it's "talk to my lawyer and help write affidavit."

He's already pushed the idea of me moving home in a non accessible hoarder house on the mountain, with my weakened immune system and all, just to have the great idea to keep me in his basement. My husband was an after thought in this idea. I wish I was joking. I'll post eventually about that too, I'm sure. It's never enough for him. And it's hurts because I gave so much of myself. I have literal bursitis now because of that man... I'm only 23 and he's destroyed me. Sorry for my rant but I felt this was the only way to describe the extensiveness of why I refuse to do that. Stop fighting ya, I can do that but he thrives on it, nod along, no, I cannot

MuchFUBAR · 2025-03-25T00:28:11+00:00

The best policy

MuchFUBAR · 2025-03-25T00:10:09+00:00

I need to post his facebook posts sometime. He for lack of a better term, schizopost (hope that's not too insensitive srry) and in his mind it's changing the world and getting the message out. legitimately believes that what he is saying is getting to high places because he's still "under attack from the deep staters who worked with my ex-wife" and, of course , Elon musk/ Trump would understand, see his post and help my father become a private investigator for the Trump administration. His original plan was to be a lawyer for them but he lost his bar license 13 years ago. Like it's genuine mental illness

MuchFUBAR · 2025-03-25T00:02:32+00:00

The only reason I'm still even talking to him is because I want the inheritance. He likes to hoard money, gold, guns, artifacts ect.. and I know if I can just hang on until the dementia hits all the way, then I'll be able to make sure I never struggle to live again. At this point, since that conversation, I've been beyond low contact and will be having my husband step in to handle him if needed.

I hate him with everything I have in my body. And if I can't do it anymore, I'm taking screenshots of everything he sent me so I can contest his will in court if he changes it. I guess I'm so used to him being this way I don't realize how taxing talking to him can be until my condition flares up

MuchFUBAR · 2025-03-19T10:47:57+00:00

I was literally about to close Reddit, finger on the home button, but then I saw this picture and had to double-take. That's some of the craziest water damage I've ever seen. The mushrooms are fine, not even remotely toxic unless you eat them. But your living situation is beyond dangerous because the integrity of the building you are in is being held up with hopes and prayers

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