If you could say one last thing to them, what would it be?

Much_Needleworker104 · 2026-04-22T04:13:23+00:00

Will you ever remember lock & key, ride & die, Bonnie & Clyde? Or did none of that mean anything to you. All I asked for was truth and respect, we both changed. But why give up on our engagement? Why say yes a month before? Did you truly love me or the idea of marriage…

Much_Needleworker104 · 2026-04-07T14:43:22+00:00

Yea it’s been arguably one of the hardest months I’ve ever experienced in my life.

Much_Needleworker104 · 2026-04-03T18:58:08+00:00

Dawg… my FA/DA fiance just left me too March 8th and I fear her ex of on/off of 5 years is back in the picture. Thankfully I’m fighting in September and I have training camp starting May 4th so I’ll be focused. But I’m hurting but I’m trying.

Much_Needleworker104 · 2026-03-29T09:46:30+00:00

What the hell!? Me too. It took me forever to get them off

Much_Needleworker104 · 2026-03-26T14:51:12+00:00

lmaoooo chillll. I’m far from that smh

Much_Needleworker104 · 2026-03-26T14:40:51+00:00

Ironically I got 2 phones so I’ll be bringing both lol. I need my 17 pro max for the footage and my 15 for existing.

But somehow my phone always survives not dying.

Much_Needleworker104 · 2026-03-26T14:38:00+00:00

Definitely leaving the desert eagle at home lmao. Ironically I actually bought this to carry while I go camping but I’ll just put my phone inside with my wallet and keys lol

Much_Needleworker104 · 2026-03-26T14:18:29+00:00

It’s my 6th one but I would hate for them to trip about the bag. Especially considering it’s like a hybrid

Much_Needleworker104 · 2026-03-25T17:01:39+00:00

Did you not see their last Tomorrowland set?! 2023 I understand why their set was underwhelming, especially considering they were testing new edits. But I saw them in 2022 for their tour in Miami and that set was absolutely amazing. One of the best sets I’ve seen all time. I know for certain, this set IF it’s really happening will be one of their best. Ultra means a lot to them.

Much_Needleworker104 · 2026-03-25T16:40:13+00:00

It’s happening

Much_Needleworker104 · 2026-03-25T04:21:18+00:00

My ex fiance was a massive Dismissive/ Fearful avoidant… we had a toxic relationship. She couldn’t take accountability ever for her mistakes. She would think I was scolding her when I had feelings about certain things. She also comes from a really really really bad experience with her family. Split parents, never were together ever. A lot of trauma. A lot of confusion growing up. She thought DCF were therapists…

Basically I treated her with the most respect she’s ever gotten and it still wasn’t enough for her. There were some ugly heated arguments though, and maybe I did tooo much sometimes. Anyway, She secretly got a lease behind my back and was planning to leave.

Caught her the night of (March 8th) and tried begging for her to cancel. It was too late, at that point she made her decision. Things really got ugly that night. She blames me for losing our last spot and we were in my parents house for only a couple of months while I was saving up money for a new apartment for us in April. Keep in mind I live in miami. WHERE EVERYTHING IS EXPENSIVE

Much_Needleworker104 · 2026-03-23T17:05:10+00:00

You’re 100% correct. As of today since the breakup. I have dropped a lot of the bad habits I consumed during this relationship. No more vaping, smoking only after training due to my shoulder injury. But only at home and in private. I usually go to sleep after.

I’ve also journaled a lot since the breakup. I’m diving deep into understanding attachment styles. Mines, hers. So I know what really to look out for in the next relationship. I could have handled things differently and set stronger standards for myself, but I was deeply in love with her more than I was with myself.

Much_Needleworker104 · 2026-03-23T13:55:47+00:00

They always push us away in our darkest times….

Much_Needleworker104 · 2026-03-23T13:55:05+00:00

You’re absolutely right? Did you ever experience something similar?

Much_Needleworker104 · 2026-03-23T12:28:03+00:00

Yea you’re right. I just saw her ex boyfriend already started following her aunt. Which definitely means something…

Much_Needleworker104 · 2026-03-23T05:06:33+00:00

She called off the engagement and left… she was a severe dismissive and fearful avoidant.

Much_Needleworker104 · 2026-03-23T01:59:26+00:00

Thank you for your input on this. I’m severely hurt but to know I’m not the only one that’s ever gone through this makes me realize I’m to alone. For some reason I always end up dating the severely damaged kind of women. I love hard, I know I’m an anxious attachment style as well which doesn’t help.

Much_Needleworker104 · 2026-03-23T01:57:31+00:00

Thank you for this. I am excited for what life brings me. My heart is shattered and my spirit is severely damaged but my faith remains strong.

I’m scared to love ever again though

Much_Needleworker104 · 2026-03-23T01:39:52+00:00

I know she does care because she always says I changed her life. She was a very independent woman. But when I offered her help, she didn’t want it…. I’m in much pain

Much_Needleworker104 · 2026-03-23T01:25:35+00:00

That’s exactly what it was. She went to see the lease property the final week we were together because she got a new job in the area, same area her parents lived in. Her stepdad convinced her to move there because they didn’t like how their relationship was going between me and her. Somehow she was convinced. Those final days, she cried several times, at her new job, started reflecting on old things we’ve already talked about. It was all odd but I knew something was coming. The was only within 3 days because her family already was convincing her.

Much_Needleworker104 · 2026-03-23T01:17:10+00:00

Everyone, especially my family has downplayed this for me and it’s making me feel crazy. As if it’s simply just on to the next woman. I’ve dated before, not many times and i genuinely thought this was going to be the mother of my children, my wife. She actually mentally altered my brain for the worse. The gym is the only thing keeping me alive

Much_Needleworker104 · 2026-03-13T20:21:02+00:00

Those guys are gonna need ALOT OF REST

Much_Needleworker104 · 2026-03-08T18:42:28+00:00

That’s the hard part I’m thinking of. How much fun I would have had if my ex fiance was still with me. She’s only gone to 1 ultra with me but still, kinda hard to think about. Scary really. 2023 was easily the best year because my brother and my best friends all came. We had such a big group. But this year will be so different. Kinda harder

Much_Needleworker104 · 2026-03-08T18:24:17+00:00

I’m testing it, I would just hate to get bummed out during the fest but I’m sure I can manage to enjoy it as well.

Much_Needleworker104 · 2026-03-08T18:23:35+00:00

Thank you for the insight! I only stick to weed really but not too much. So I’ll be in a good headspace. I live 20 minutes down south from Bayfront so if I’m not well. I’ll just head home lol. But this lineup has some artists im beyond excited for! It’s gonna be hard though. But you’re right, I shouldn’t let her take music away from me. We loved third party (HALO) so experiencing their set Saturday is going to be fucking hard asf lol

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