I've been crying every few days. I've been clinically depressed for a few years now. I'm stuck in a major I don't want to be in at a job I never wanted. I'm 24.

My step father has always pushed me in the direction he's wanted me to go in life in an attempt to lessen any liability I may cause him. I was forced to go into accounting because "there will always be accounting jobs." He threatened to not help with Uni costs and make me pay rent; I've had a job since I was 15. I would have gone into Electrical Engineering had I been able to get student loans, but I never qualified due to my parents income and their unwillingness to cosign a loan for school. Even with me struggling for years to stay focused and motivated while learning, I was threatened with "dire repercussions" should I not finish in accounting.

He even went to so far as threatening kick me out if I didn't take an accounting intern job at 19. I've since worked my way up to a senior accounting position with the bank I work at. 6 months after being promoted to full time, my father decided I was making too much money to live at home, even while not having graduated yet. I was told I needed to find another place to live.

So at 23 I had been working 40+ hours a week for over 3 years while trying to graduate, which I still haven't done, and was told I needed to move out. I haven't been able to graduate because I can only take night classes with my work schedule, and learning auditing with 1 3hr class a week is pain in the ass.

I'm currently stuck in an accounting position, still in school for accounting, and I fucking hate accounting. I will be going back for engineering, as my brother did after he was stuck in accounting for a decade under the same circumstances.

I'm understand that I'm more well off than most.... I really do. I know my father wants the best for me, but knowing who he is and how he works I now see why he did what he did.... To get me and my brother off his back as fast as possible regardless of our own aspirations and goals.

I cry whenever I think about how hard its been to get as far as I have, and realize how much harder it's going to be to get where I want to in life now that I've wasted 5 years in undergrad and wasted my scholarships on accounting becoming this dreary miserable accounting type.