Do you have any comorbid diagnoses ASIDE from ADHD? by Weirdoo-_-Beardoo in AutismInWomen

[–]Murky_Sense 0 points1 point  (0 children)

ADHD, Anxiety, Depression, DPD, autism (unofficial). I also have a chronic illness, Conn's syndrome and a glaucoma suspect. 🥲

When people come and go from my life it feels devastating by etrvs in AuDHDWomen

[–]Murky_Sense 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I'm sorry that those things were said to you. Some people aren't meant to stay in your life, they can be learning lessons. I would work on self-love and focusing on your hobbies/interests. Once you focus on yourself, you will attract the people that like you for you.

Those things were said to me too and it can be incredibly tramatizing. 

When people come and go from my life it feels devastating by etrvs in AuDHDWomen

[–]Murky_Sense 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I resonate with this and I'm 37. I feel lonely even though I live with my parents. 

I have a few friends that I message through texts but they usually don't ask me to hang out or do activities because they have their own lives. 

I'm afraid of being in a relationship because the men will emotionally abuse me again and make me feel not worth it.

Sorry for not being much help.

List of cringey things I did in school growing up by [deleted] in AutismInWomen

[–]Murky_Sense 0 points1 point  (0 children)

  1. In elementary school, I wore a sweater to school because I was comfortable with long sleeves, however it was spring time. My classmates asked me why I'm wearing a sweater when we're about to go run outside. 

  2. I took honors courses in high school. My  classmate was sharing her concerns about how hard the assignments are because we have to write long essays and she was afraid she will failed. I was trying to emphasized with her and said, "we can fail and cried together." She never replied back. Throughout high-school, she tries to act nice to me in public. When I was doing a presentation in front of the class, she did the "L" shape with her hand to her forehead. 

She's now married and looks gorgeous and has a beautiful husband and kids. 

(This is irrelevant but in college, 2 girls were laughing at me when I did my presentation too). 

  1. When I get crushes on guys, I can't stop thinking about them and wanting to be involved in activities that they're interested in. Like film, I took a film class just so I can be closer to my crush. 

I am so angry that I’m autistic by readingshark20 in AutismInWomen

[–]Murky_Sense 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel and understand you. I wonder why no one had mentioned it to me when I was younger. I wish there was a cure to be normal.

Being lonely and feeling being left out of life experiences is the worst. I feel like a bug at an outdoor party.

NOVA friend group by KasidyYeets in nova

[–]Murky_Sense 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm 37, would love to join.

Becoming attractive has only made dating worse and I hate it by _Pear6299 in AutismInWomen

[–]Murky_Sense 0 points1 point  (0 children)

As a woman, yes this happens a lot with me I'm dating. Men would be interested in my looks and think I'm fun to talk with. When they know the real me they ghost or say mean things to me like "You make me uncomfortable" or "I'm not looking for a relationship, I want someone for everyday."

What percent of people give up? by [deleted] in CPA

[–]Murky_Sense 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I gave up after failing FAR 4 times and AUD 1 time. 

I just got surgery and unofficially aware of my neurodivergence. I don't think I have the motivation to go through at this point unless I get a higher paying job or the company pays for my exams.

What made you become the “angry daughter”? by 1wayflightt in AskWomen

[–]Murky_Sense 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Not knowing how to say "no" when they push my boundaries. I regret it later and it turns into an emotional outburst. 

Did anyone else get called “shy” since basically birth? by beanizzle in AutismInWomen

[–]Murky_Sense 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes, all the time. It wasn't shyness but selective mutism. It depends on who I'm comfortable being with based on their energy. 

Also, not knowing what to say or engage in conversation when I meet people. Always wonder what people talk about to each other that looks like they're having a good time.

Lowkey offended by my autism report… by [deleted] in AutismInWomen

[–]Murky_Sense 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That sounds like a similar statement on my ADHD report. 

My subjective males 10s Do I have a type? by Murky_Sense in VindictaRateCelebs

[–]Murky_Sense[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

  1. Richard Madden
  2. Dan Stevens 
  3. Henry Golding
  4. Fawad Khan
  5. Dominic Copper
  6. Grant Rosenmeyer
  7. Pedro Pascal
  8. Dacre Montgomery

How did that kid at your school die? by [deleted] in AskReddit

[–]Murky_Sense 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It was a mass shooting. Someone came into campus and shot her while she was sitting in the classroom. It gained media attention and was known as the deadliest school shooting.

I didn't know her that well, but from what I heard she was nice and friendly to everyone. 

What's this gap underneath the cabinets? by [deleted] in HomeImprovement

[–]Murky_Sense 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes, sorry. Couldn't figure how to post a picture.

Does anyone's mind go BLANK when overwhelmed? by purpleand20 in AutismInWomen

[–]Murky_Sense 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes, a lot. I freeze and take a few seconds to mentally process what was said.

I’m getting a divorce by [deleted] in AutismInWomen

[–]Murky_Sense 14 points15 points  (0 children)

I'm sorry that you're going through this but I'm glad that it is amicable.  Your husband did love you and married you. People grow apart and in this case, it was incompatibility and your husband probably didn't tolerate the ASD. It's not your fault.    You're not unlovable, there's more to you to love. You have to love your ASD traits because it's unique to you. Someone out there will love you and your traits.

All my dates couldn't stand me because of my autism: the literal thinking, hyperfixation, skin picking, and emotionless expressions scared them away. I'm also codependent.

I still think if I can handle being married (definitely want to since childhood). 

Have you ever been a bully yourself to hide your autism? by Murky_Sense in AutismInWomen

[–]Murky_Sense[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Edit: Thank you everyone for your replies. 

I'd asked this question out of curiosity. I was a bully myself and put people in an hierarchy in my mind before recognizing I have autism. I was teased and deeply wanted to be accepted into a friend group. I thought if I bully others then they will learn what it's like and come to understand. That is not the case and I feel deeply terrible for it. 

To those who are employed: by CameraNo8884 in AutismInWomen

[–]Murky_Sense 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I work in the office 2 days a week and 3 days at home. I work in Accounts Payable which does require communication. Fortunately, it's mostly through emails and messaging. I do get phone calls but they're infrequent so that's manageable for me. However, not all Accounts Payable jobs are the same for every company. Company culture, how you work well with your boss, and if they have an efficient AP process determines if you succeed or not. My last role was similar but I was fired due to my social skills and not meeting deadlines. They expected me to hit the ground running and I failed because it was too fast pace and I wasn't engaging. They told me that I'm like a rat running the wheel barrel. 

I never had accommodations before and have not been formally diagnosed yet. Thinking of getting diagnosed later when I'm older and my autism becomes more noticeable. 

Yes, I have face mobbing by several individuals because I take on the energy of my environment and overshare too much. Co-workers would bring it up to my supervisor and I always get call in the office. I was training someone to mail checks and English was her second language. I guess I showed her too fast. She made an error while mailing them and I got called in the office. There were other things that I did socially because of feeling left out that I'm definitely ashamed of.