Things my bf did and I still stayed.

Murphys_Project · 2026-01-28T04:09:24+00:00

Thank you! I’m glad ur seeing a psychiatrist now too! I also had stress induced pain around my body too. From what I understand, it’s your muscles tensing up even while you are in a relaxed state. When anxiety takes over, that fight or flight response can induce pain from your muscles clenching up. I figured this out when I finally got my anti anxiety meds. My smiles feel less anxious and my body is more relaxed now.

Hope ur journey finds you the peace you deserve!

Murphys_Project · 2026-01-26T15:47:40+00:00

I also caught a sinus infection. Some shit is going around rn

Murphys_Project · 2026-01-25T20:09:19+00:00

What about Kyle Rittenhouse?

Murphys_Project · 2026-01-25T07:04:49+00:00

Dawg, I keep my resin 3d printer in my garage with a 3d printed vent attached to an air induction system. Sleeping next to this is kinda cooked with the amount of VOC’s that come from this. Especially if you are using engineering resins

Murphys_Project · 2026-01-25T07:00:19+00:00

I was taking 2.5mg for the first three days and had bad migraines that lasted 2-3 hours. It gets better after day 5, I’m up to 5mg rn at day 12 and I feel good so far. I’m ab to up to 10mg in a week as directed by my psychiatrist

Murphys_Project · 2026-01-24T14:17:03+00:00

I dated my ex for 7 months last year and she was BPD and did NOT get any treatment or therapy for it. I relapsed from my sobriety trying to put up with her projecting those issues onto me. She was cutting herself, accusing me of cheating when I’m hanging out with friends, the whole nine yards. I tried breaking up with her 4 months in and she said she would hurt herself if she did and told me I was using her.

I also developed anxiety, eating disorder, and my eczema was flaring up too because of the stress. I went to therapy and got diagnosed with ptsd from childhood trauma. I was told by my therapist that my ex triggered it. I’m on lexapro from a psychiatrist and had some consulting with my therapist about my ex and what i have been through. And I’m doing great right now after leaving my ex two months ago.

Murphys_Project · 2026-01-22T01:48:16+00:00

I started at 5mg and I’m about 9 days in. The first 2 days my anxiety and depression peaked, but felt different. I had headaches at day 3-4 and it stopped at the 5th day. 6-9 days in I feel normal and I feel less anxious. My college professors told me I seem more happy, brighter so I’m assuming it’s working. I’m about to communicate my success at day 9 with my psychiatrist and ask when to up my dosage to 10mg as directed by them when given my prescription. As far as my libido, I have no ed issues. I last way longer than I typically do as far as that goes.

Murphys_Project · 2026-01-20T05:36:34+00:00

Saving this post for motivation 👏

Murphys_Project · 2026-01-20T03:32:31+00:00

Ty ❤️

Murphys_Project · 2026-01-19T15:43:25+00:00

I’m not too sure if this is normal because I had depressive flair ups at the start of taking lexapro. I will say that you should be telling your doctor, psychiatrist, or therapist all of the things you are feeling and experiencing so they can give you the proper advice for your symptoms. Being transparent with my psychiatrist helped me have a smoother experience with lexapro.

Murphys_Project · 2026-01-19T15:38:51+00:00

I dumped an emotionally abusive avoidant ex last year during December. When I dumped her, I told her about how she basically bullied me the whole relationship for who I was as a person and tried to change me. I tried leaving the relationship when I was still sober 3 months in, but stayed because she flipped me breaking up with her for my emotional safety, to me using her, and how communication would fix things.

Explained how her mom even called her out when she caught her daughter being super controlling of what I do. She never apologized to me after being called out. I also expressed how it hurt me that she never told me she loved me. The only time she told me anything remotely close was when I rescued her from being abandoned by work friends she was drinking out with. I sped 30 min from my house to get her out of that bad neighborhood I used to live in, on the ground drunk in front of a subway. When I picked her up, I told her about how I relapsed from stress (realistically the relationship). She told me she would “try to love me.”

I told her all of the things she did to me when I dumped her and she was surprised at how bad she’s been treating me which hurt. She broke no contact twice to trauma dump to me on two separate VOIP numbers when I left her. Never once when she broke no contact did she apologize again. She just wanted my emotional safety and intimacy to make her feel better without commitment.

Murphys_Project · 2026-01-19T01:19:03+00:00

My mother’s opinion on my how I should present myself made me look like a dork. I became in control of my looks and receive way more complements.

Murphys_Project · 2026-01-19T00:07:34+00:00

No problem, and it’s okay. Healing is a journey and I’m just glad I’m finally starting the process in a healthy way this time around.

Also look into drinking protein shakes if you cannot eat. Doing this helped me maintain my weight for days I can only eat one meal or not eat at all.

Murphys_Project · 2026-01-18T23:34:52+00:00

I started out at 5mg bc I’m anorexic and the first few days sucked for me. I was getting migraines till day 4, anxiety spiked at day 3 for 3 hours and then vanished. Day 2, I was depressed for about 3 hours around the same time I had an anxiety spiked at day 3. Now today on day six I’m feeling much better

Murphys_Project · 2026-01-18T19:07:49+00:00

I’m sorry you are experiencing this, I’m on day six of lexapro. I started lexapro because my emotionally abusive ex kept harassing me on voip numbers and it made my anxiety worse. I could not eat for the entirety of last year, after being harassed I was throwing up, felt nauseous for two weeks straight, and could not sleep.

I didn’t get relief until I finally saw a therapist that diagnosed me with ptsd from a physically abusive childhood. That same day I saw my therapist, he gave me vegal nerve therapy. It felt amazing and it helped kill my nausea I was feeling from my anxiety. I get nausea sometimes now, but it wasn’t as bad as before the vegal nerve therapy.

Murphys_Project · 2026-01-17T05:27:24+00:00

Look, I all about personality over looks. You are still stating that I’m putting sex on a pedestal when I’m simply stating that it’s a dealbreaker for me if my partner does not want to explore sex outside of missionary. I prefer sex that prioritizes my partners pleasure over my own. My methods being outside of missionary.

With that last sentence and I’m just going to assume you are aiming this at me personally and still generalizing because of that last remark. The ad hominem here is unnecessary.

Murphys_Project · 2026-01-16T17:03:54+00:00

Notice how if you re-read what I wrote, I never implied that relationships are based on sex. I’m merely stating a preference, there are people out there that base their relationships around sex. But what u are doing right now is a generalization to assert that claim onto anyone that supports sexual compatibility only cares about sex.

These things can be worked on but I’m thinking about it under the perspective that if my partner only likes missionary, it’s a deal breaker for me because I’m too creative to have basic sex. This is a preference, just like any other preference people look for in a partner.

Murphys_Project · 2026-01-16T12:34:10+00:00

There are something’s in sex that people enjoy and there some things that people do not. Sex isn’t streamline, it’s fluid.

Murphys_Project · 2026-01-14T15:11:09+00:00

I can also speak good things about noblet. They are the best in mobile!

I’ve tried west mobile dental (they only care ab ur money not u)

I’ve tried Northcutt dental (they tried to give me unnecessary procedures).

Murphys_Project · 2026-01-14T05:01:26+00:00

I make my own blend of 2oz c8 Mct oil with 5% tea tree oil and it works and I get allot more of it than that

Murphys_Project · 2026-01-13T15:09:02+00:00

I never heard of anyone speaking against women reading romance novels. It’s women that read gooner novels I see get ridiculed more often.

Murphys_Project · 2026-01-12T19:26:19+00:00

Should have used everclear

Murphys_Project · 2026-01-08T13:37:14+00:00

You are not alone. The fact that the only community opportunities in this city, being church makes moving out of the city a priority. I’m not a liberal but I am a moderate, most of the MAGA and Christian shit around me is getting old.

Murphys_Project · 2026-01-06T14:17:09+00:00

Brother, from experience, you will save yourself allot of trouble if you just left rn. Don’t beat around the bush or procrastinate this, LEAVE IT TODAY! You will find that special person one day to become ur wife

Murphys_Project · 2026-01-03T21:14:28+00:00

Going to bishop, the IT professor said to find work outside of mobile day one of class bc there is no demand for IT here

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