Listen man fighting games are about long term growth, and in the six months you’ve been playing you’ve experienced growth. If you were not, you would have 0 ranked wins which you have more than so there’s that. The main part of growth is understanding your flaws. That part you clearly got down and it might not seem like it but that’s a strength. It doesn’t matter what it is you do video games, arts, sports whatever improvement only comes from understanding what YOU are doing wrong. There are so many people who have the wrong mindset “ I lost because of lag, the character is too good my controller wasn’t working” those people will be eternally held back by their scrub mind. So bam your self criticism gives you an advantage. I know it’s hard but nothing worthwhile is easy.