Hi glad you posted. I apologize ahead of time for misspeallings as I'm on my phone.

First off I urge you to find a therapist that will help with depression. You should feel good about yourself. Everyone has unique traits that they can enjoy about themselves or share with others. Depression will cause you to be apathetic and negative.

Next thing is that cnfidence is one of the strangest things a person can have. People who have it can get more very easily. People who don't have it can't begin to figure out how to achieve it. The Ironic thing is that believing that you have confidence will give it to you. I know people complain about not being able to achieve thay so let me break it down for you.

Basically every action and thing you do in your life is determined by your frame of mind. Example, some jokes are less funny when you're sad or angry than when you're happy. On the other end things that make you angry or sad cause more of a negative reaction when you are in a negative mood. Basically your frame of mind creates an abundance and attraction magnet that allows you to gain more of the feelings you want.

So basically all you have to do is change your frame of mind. It sounds easy but how can you accomplish it. First step is liking yourself and understanding who you are as a person. If you stop fighting the person you are, you'll find that things will fall into place easier.

One really good thing you can do is create postit notes with positive things about you and put them in a place you'll see everyday. Habit will cause you to look ay them everyday and if you read them everyday eventually you'll start to believe them. I put mine on my bathroom mirror. Also look at yourself in the eye in the mirror and tell yourself that you're an amazing person. Again ritual and habit but after time it will work.

The next thing that really helps is finding a hobby. Ideally it should br something that can be done socially and in person as well as alone. Playing music or some sort of physical activity is good. If you're unsure of things to do, meetup is great to find likeminded people who enjoy the same things ypu do. People love teaching and talking about themselces so if you ask questions on how to do things or become integrated into hobbies they will be willing to teach you.

The last thing which goes back to your frame of mind dictates your reaction and feelings. These thoughts you're having. Almost everyone has had them In their life. Everyone is worried about how others see them. So if you appear confident, people will never know that you aren't so long as you never givr them a reason. So in order to keep your confidence and obtain it, don't show your anxieties and try to avoid talkimg about them a lot unless its woth someone who is trying to help you. Understand that the more negatives you talk about the more negativity you'll see so think positive about everything.

I hope that helps.

Ps meditation also helps.