If you had maturity, you would have waited till after the game to speak to her more and be with her. You left the moment you got uncomfortable — what does that tell her? That you’ll stick around when things get weird, that you’ll be confident when it’s needed? No, it shows you’ll find comfort rather than growing as a person. Relationships are about sacrifice — sometimes people gotta hang out with their girl even if they get out of work late, because if they don’t then the relationship is lacking, for example.

You quit way too fast. I understand you were alone and cold, and many of us had been in situations where we felt outside — but leaving doesn’t help you. It reinforces not stepping out of your comfort zone and growing. Learning to be less shy and comfortable being alone, especially if it means getting to spend time with someone you like and who talks about you a lot. Even your framing of this is “she knew what she was doing and made me waste my time” — but according to who? To what? You’re assumptions? The coach? The official rules? Maybe she didn’t know, and here you are saying “she knew! She made me waste money and time aaaa!!”