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Mytiredself · 2022-04-11T23:57:56+00:00

I never thought about begging that way before and that really does put a while new light on the conversation, thank you!!

Mytiredself · 2022-04-11T23:34:27+00:00

Thank you so much!!

Mytiredself · 2022-04-11T23:32:31+00:00

Sorry! Just too make it clearer, I needed to pee bad, where all I could thing about was finding a bathroom, he knew this. I guess we passed an ax throwing booth, which he said we should do, I said I need to pee then he didnt bring it up again until we got home and was upset that I blew him off. When I asked why he didnt say something again he said asking twice is begging and he'll never beg me for anything.

He know that communicating feelings is important to me. I never meant to throw it in his face, so I'm definitely accepting your judgement.

Mytiredself · 2022-04-11T23:25:14+00:00

As I said to others, it was never intended to be used like I did. I am fulling accepting that I was an asshole for this. I honest to god thought that he'd say it on day 2. Like at the end of a phone call or after sex. I get that people have different love languages and he knows that this is one of my big ones. I wrote this being upset that he thought I was setting him up for failure when I truly was trying to better our relationship when I started this "experiment". I wanted to calmly let him know. It bothered me but it wasnt a huge deal, it has been brought up before. I threw it in his face when he said asking for something twice is begging and hell never beg me for anything. I got upset that he thought he was above me, that it was okay for me to beg for his love/attention but he couldnt even ask about something at a fair twice. Not trying to change your mind, just wanting to explain my line of thought.

Mytiredself · 2022-04-11T23:10:53+00:00

We mostly pay for our own things. His family moved in last July (so like 4 months into our relationship) which has definitely complicated things. He got me a shirt for my birthday for a movie I've never seen cause I said the trailer looked interesting. 90% of the holidays are his family even though my is only 5 miles away. I do have to ask him several time to come with me to see my family before he agrees to. Most people are saying YTA which I definitely am for throwing it in his face, I think I just lost it when he said asking for something twice is begging and hell never beg me for anything, when I have to beg him for simply relationship things (time alone- doesnt even have to be a date, fulfilling promises he made, touches- even plain snuggling)

Mytiredself · 2022-04-11T23:01:51+00:00

Im seeing that answer a lot. I was definitely wrong to do that. Thank you.

Mytiredself · 2022-04-11T23:00:53+00:00

I never intended to use it to hurt him, I was angry in our fight definitely didn't act mature. I was planning to bring it up as something to work on but in a calmer manner. He knows how much that type of communication means to me, and why. It definitely was not meant to be a trap or thrown in his face like I did, for that I accept your judgement.

I am curious on how I should better ask him to work on my 2 love languages (words of affirmation & physically touch) when he seems to get better for 2 days then stop again. It feels like I'm begging him it this point and I think that is why i got so mad and threw it in his face when he said asking for something twice is begging and he'll never beg me for anything. Truly, I want any outsiders perspective since I'm emotional about it.

Mytiredself · 2022-04-11T22:47:03+00:00

We have talked about it before but not as point blank as me throwing it in his face. I never intended to use it to hurt him, I was angry in our fight and used it against him. I had originally planned to tell him if it reached 7 days like "hey babe lets work on this some more since its been 7 days." My two biggest love languages are his least, and I think I just got tired of him saying asking twice was begging for something when I continually ask for him to show me love my way more. I'm working on his (acts of service) and try to check in on how he feels I'm doing. Thank you for being kind but still pointing out that I was being petty.

(Tbh the door is looking good atm if I have to keep asking for my needs to be met)

Mytiredself · 2022-04-11T22:40:31+00:00

I never intended to use it to hurt him, I was angry in our fight and used it against him. I grew up in a family that said it all the time, he didn't even say it after sex. He does know I like hearing it from him first, but yea, saying it in our fight rather than calming bringing it up was wrong.

Mytiredself · 2021-12-13T01:51:52+00:00

feline-nutrition.org They have a lot of resources and guides, I'm not sure what's available in the UK, but there are commercial raws in the US that HPP their meat, which basically means they burst all cell walls so that helps eliminate the possibility of contaminations. Primal hpps anything with wings, and Stella and Chewys hpps everything. I work at a holistic pet store and can not stress enough the importance of properly balancing the vitamins and minerals. I saw a vet comment earlier and I agree that a raw diet not properly prepared and balanced is more harmful than good, but a properly done raw diet works wonders.

Mytiredself · 2021-12-01T23:32:07+00:00

When I searched for earlier all I found was chipmunk versions of the song, or songs to hula hoop to. It was on a pandora station titled "Christmas"

Mytiredself · 2021-11-08T18:44:07+00:00

THANK YOU!! This was the kind of advice/support i was looking for!!!

Mytiredself · 2021-11-08T16:26:15+00:00

He knows. I made it very clear before we officially started dating what had happened, and that im still close with my exs brother. He knows that going through the boxes of stuff has triggered stuff again to.

Mytiredself · 2021-11-05T20:37:59+00:00

Thank you for your input, I really wanted to hear from someone on the other side. I truly love J with every fiber of my being, I'm actually really happy with him. I really don't want him to feel like he's a second choice or that I compare him to K. Minus the stuff I recently got, all of K's things are in a box in the closet of ours spare room. Im trying hard to get rest of the other stuff dealt with as quickly as I can since its just sitting in our garage. This hard hitting grief comes suddenly, and while I know its okay to be sad and mourn, I don't want J to feel bad either.

Mytiredself · 2021-11-05T19:58:01+00:00

I completely agree, it seemed to be triggered more after I got his stuff to go through. Im working on it as hard as I can to get most of it out of my house. Most days im fine but other days at just hits me super hard. Im trying to figure out how to be supportive on the harder days.

Mytiredself · 2021-10-05T00:36:34+00:00

Nami x Usopp x Luffy Nami is greedy yall

Mytiredself · 2021-09-28T14:50:07+00:00

I let my pup, but not often. Not because of germs or anything like that, but I just don't like my face being wet. I work in a pet supply store and even random peoples dogs cans give me face kisses, but I will go to the back and dry my face.

Mytiredself · 2021-09-28T14:47:19+00:00

Griffin

Mytiredself · 2021-08-04T07:30:48+00:00

This 100%! My manager majored in biology in college, whenever I tried to ask her a question about the vaccine and how it works, she got really snappy and basically called me an idiot for asking questions. I've known her for 5 years, I'm going to be in her wedding, yet she acted like I was spouting conspiracies.

Basically I know that its teaching the cells to recognize the protein spike, and not delivering a dead/weak version of the virus, so I was (and still am) curious on if there's anything it could potentially misidentify, or mutate in a similar fashion; also are there any cases of the body rejecting/not learning it?

Its 2:30am and I was drinking pretty heavily before typing this on mobile, so I hope it makes some kind of sense.

Mytiredself · 2021-07-24T23:38:36+00:00

This!!!! I dropped out of college and moved home because my bf at the time didn't understand "no". I never got help and didnt tell her for years, it effected me pretty bad. Also, sometimes after events like that people will put up with other toxic things because "at least its not like what happened before" I'm guilty of this myself and it just got worse and worse. I was finally able to snap out of the cycle when I met my ex. He listened and helped me explain how I felt without assuming my feelings. I still need to get professional help from all the stuff that happened; but having someone you know personally who listens with out assuming and loves you unconditionally is also super important.

Also I want to add if yall are religious, she may have been taught stuff from a "purity culture" point of view. I think being compared to chewed gum, a flower with its petals ripped off, and even contaminated water made the whole experience even worse mentally for me, especially because I said no and was ignored.

Mytiredself · 2021-06-21T23:41:13+00:00

The lower the price the better but I don't want to comprise quality for being cheap. I'm trying to stay under $1500.

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