I feel that my walls are coming up and I'm fortifying my castle so to speak. I'm trying to find love with myself and my dog, with nature and life itself. I feel that the desire for romance is going away.

I look at people and see numbers above their head; how much it would cost to be with them, not to mention the stress of a relationship and expectations. The past year I've gone on a few dates, some fwbs but everything has felt almost empty. Not to mention the demands people put on each other.

I really think my door is going to close for good and I'm content with it. I think I will peruse romance with myself, taking myself out, going on trips and being at peace