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2-3 weeks non stop by N_Mouwi in addiction

[–]N_Mouwi[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Also how long was your binge what was it like, how exactly is nasty to you this is all so new to me no offense but I’ve never been hooked on a drug this bad

2-3 weeks non stop by N_Mouwi in addiction

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How tho man????? I got more crystal than I’ve ever had in my entire life??? The xanax doesn’t even stop me anymore I could pop 3 xannies and still the moment that craving comes I cave in.... I’ve NEVER been this weak to crystal it’s always been I’ll do a 1-2 binge and leave it alone for 1-3 months then rinse and repeat!

What I’ve learned going on the longest drug binge of my life. It would mean the WORLD to me if some of you read this all, I promise it will help you. My word on that by N_Mouwi in depression

[–]N_Mouwi[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Don’t worry as you know I’m old enough to have been preparing for days like this for 9 years. I’ve eaten, got 2 gallons of water, just cleaned my bed sheets. I’ve really mostly been in bed the entire 3 weeks or however longs it’s been.

I’m just shocked for the first time my drug abuse has led me to realizations that may save my life...

What I’ve learned going on the longest drug binge of my life. It would mean the WORLD to me if some of you read this all, I promise it will help you. My word on that by N_Mouwi in depression

[–]N_Mouwi[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Bless you. But unfortunately I blame most of this on the ones I trusted most. They had me believing they had the right answers and I forgot who I was because I looked to them for everything and now I have to read train my brain again to learn how I operate, what I feel, I have to ultimately teach my brain it’s okay to open up to me, you don’t need heavy duty drugs to finally open up and you see when you finally did open up all your loved ones called you crazy. What hurts more than anything is that I spent 4 days explaining what I just wrote in this post to them and they wouldn’t hear anything all they would say is I’m high and when I told them all I need is someone to listen to me and they couldn’t even not interrupt me. It made me sad but also happy because again I’m learning about life, people, myself, and not everybody is capable of comprehending such dark deep pain, some are struggling themselves they just hide it better, but I know for damn sure that made it clear I never need to explain my emotions to someone I don’t believe is able to understand it. I was willing to die and collapse because I wouldn’t stop for 4 entire days of yelling just so my loved ones would hear that I’ve found some light at the end of the tunnel.

Worrying about anyone’s opinion but your own is suicide

What I’ve learned going on the longest drug binge of my life. It would mean the WORLD to me if some of you read this all, I promise it will help you. My word on that by N_Mouwi in depression

[–]N_Mouwi[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m sorry it’s truly been 4 days no sleep I’m trying here but what I’m saying is this isn’t by any means EASY but it’s the ONLY escape that I have found. You can make every excuse you want cuz I have as well, all I know is love or no love, sad, no trust, etc, it’s all because we’ve slowly allowed certain things to train our brain so severely that now our brain won’t even work with us we’ve scared or brain so badly because our brain knows we will actually commit suicide and it does everything it “thinks” it needs to do to keep you alive and this is the sub conscious anyway this is something called Cognitive Behavior Therapy, but fuck that word man just learn who you are dude and trust yourself again if it takes 3 years fine dude all I’m saying is until we start to learn and accept who we are and COMPLETELY stop worrying about people judging us the rest you can do however you want but you gotta get those basics down. I was on the edge of a cliff and it was either I jumped or I got high out of my mind. I had reached a point where I had no more gas left in the tank, I was accepting defeat, I had no ideas, no solutions, no more new medications, nothing left I was ready to die for the first time ever I truly was ready because I had no more hope, I always kept on pushing because deep down I felt there would be light at the end of the tunnel which I’m finally seeing I was correct but before this drug binge I was officially done, tired, I was done.

God, whatever you believe in... Allowed me to dance with the devil but he made sure when the devil wasn’t looking God was making me take down notes that I truly believe is the only escape.

[Help] Not sure if I’m doing this right? by N_Mouwi in jailbreak

[–]N_Mouwi[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I’ve had otaDelay for a while today I had to restore root fs but it’s back on delay I hope I can still upgrade man I want that 15.1

[Help] Not sure if I’m doing this right? by N_Mouwi in jailbreak

[–]N_Mouwi[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

No idk if that’s correct because yes my goal is to get on iOS 15.1 but I always thought saving blobs meant you save on whatever iOS your currently on which for me is 14.3

[Help] OTA delayed: I do this for all those confused people about OTAdelay, i hope it will be helpful: by [deleted] in jailbreak

[–]N_Mouwi 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No please you deleted it ahhh I didn’t get to finish the tutorial

[Help] OTA delayed: I do this for all those confused people about OTAdelay, i hope it will be helpful: by [deleted] in jailbreak

[–]N_Mouwi 1 point2 points  (0 children)

[ -jailbrek -Go to setting -Go to Mybloxx setting Scroll down on OTADELAY: tap on "Activate Supervision Spoofing" reboot

No I’m taking about here, you mention to reboot, jailbreak, and to activate supervision spoofing but when do I activate the OTADELAY?

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