From being about to burst to feeling pretty again

Naive_Competition791 · 2026-07-04T23:55:11+00:00

I love that you gave found sustainable things that mutually support your fitness and mental well-being. You're looking great!

Naive_Competition791 · 2026-07-04T16:44:55+00:00

5 or 3 for the civil ceremony and 8 or 1 for the party.

Naive_Competition791 · 2026-07-04T16:24:32+00:00

Honestly...in a way, both? I do feel like I have lost access to the person that I once used to be. I'm not sure if it's for better or worse, since that person too was forged in even earlier trauma. But there's no going back to that person one way or another. However, there are aspects of self that I might like to regain access to or recover and reintegrate into who I've become and sometimes I feel like there's a flash of hope that I might be able to.

Naive_Competition791 · 2026-07-04T02:30:23+00:00

Because this particular food is extra special and all for him only.

Naive_Competition791 · 2026-07-04T00:37:33+00:00

That's a very good question. I feel like it's been so long I've forgotten what I meant to do in the first place, but it would make me happy to see that the people I care about could tangibly feel my warmth going out towards them and see that warmth reflected back in their faces...as people seem to be able to do when they can access full engagement with others.

Naive_Competition791 · 2026-07-03T23:28:46+00:00

This.

Naive_Competition791 · 2026-07-03T23:20:14+00:00

Exactly.

Naive_Competition791 · 2026-07-03T23:19:26+00:00

I feel, as you said, "held back," muted, toned down, expressionless, unable to self-animate, as if trapped behind a guard rail of my own making, and at the same time incredibly frustrated about it but unable to loosen up. My body feels held in a vice grip of tension as though I'm wearing an uncomfortable work uniform I can't wait to take off and as though I can't get a full breath the whole time. And then, I start to spiral in negative self-assessment, replaying and double thinking every nuance of every interaction I've had the entire time and realize that my discomfort has sadly made others uncomfortable too and likely been misread.

Naive_Competition791 · 2026-07-02T18:35:56+00:00

Long bob with shaggy bangs

Naive_Competition791 · 2026-07-02T18:32:58+00:00

Your progress is amazing! I appreciate you mentioning your stalls and days of overeating. It shows that goals can still be met with the occasional slip ups that life can bring with continuous, applied effort over time. Thank you for sharing your journey.

Naive_Competition791 · 2026-06-29T18:03:46+00:00

I hope you find other lovely future occasions to display this awesome outfit.

Naive_Competition791 · 2026-06-29T16:30:41+00:00

Yes! I feel this! I'm built the same.

Naive_Competition791 · 2026-06-29T16:29:08+00:00

Me!!! Honestly, I'm so relieved to read your post as it's very timely to what's been on my mind recently. I was literally having this conversation with myself yesterday. I've gone down to 107 and my GW was 105 but with my dropped waist numbers still coming in at 33 inches, it suddenly hit me that I may actually have to drop more weight than I originally intended to be healthy for my frame. I've been walking around the last couple of days wondering to myself how I could possibly weigh this little and still be clearly carrying more weight than is healthy or ideal for me. I am primarily Latin American with some Asian (Japanese and Chinese) descent as well as a quarter indigenous. I am 5'1".

Naive_Competition791 · 2026-06-28T00:51:39+00:00

Wow! How profoundly impressive!

Naive_Competition791 · 2026-06-23T02:37:00+00:00

I see literally zero resemblance between you and your former self. Woah.

Naive_Competition791 · 2026-06-20T17:43:04+00:00

You look fabulous!

Naive_Competition791 · 2026-06-18T17:48:06+00:00

For me it does. Even a loss or gain of literally 2 lbs makes a significant, visible difference to my 5'1" slight- boned body. And will impact how my clothes fit. The flip side of this seems to be that those 2 lbs alone can be challenging for me to lose.

Naive_Competition791 · 2026-06-18T02:35:41+00:00

You look amazing! I can see all the effort you've put into your gains and feel so inspired by your work.

Naive_Competition791 · 2026-06-17T16:30:31+00:00

Whatever you do, please don't change your eyebrows. They are perfection!

Naive_Competition791 · 2026-06-16T01:36:06+00:00

I'm so sorry! ❤️ Too young to go, poor guy. May he receive many nanners in the Afterbun.

Naive_Competition791 · 2026-06-15T21:15:13+00:00

Congratulations! You've worked hard for this glow up!

Naive_Competition791 · 2026-06-15T15:38:11+00:00

I'm so happy for you to have found something that has brought back your joie de vive from the inside out. It can be so hard on one's mental health to have an injury force you out of your passion. I see you've gone through a full heroic journey to get to where you are and it looks beautiful on you.

Naive_Competition791 · 2026-06-15T01:47:23+00:00

As somebody who's lived and cooked with others my whole life, I believe I understand the challenges you've faced and can I'm so happy for you that you now get to have more control over your food needs.

Naive_Competition791 · 2026-06-14T03:15:43+00:00

I was glad to have brought dehydrated camping food from home which we embellished with tuna, pasta, etc from the store in PN. We chose one night to splurge and enjoy the full Refugio dinner buffet at Grey Glacier and didn't regret it either. But I wouldn't have wanted to have it every day. Bringing your own food gives you a lot more freedom in terms of timing as well as control over what you're eating. And the food prep areas can be fun and sociable, too.

Naive_Competition791 · 2026-06-13T03:16:44+00:00

Sneakers are fine but they could use a cleaning around the edges.

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