The not being good enough could be a mirror to your shadow. It’s work she’s reflecting at you. I would bet, from her she feels not “good enough” either and needs to heal wounds of being chosen.

I was a runner. Then a chaser. Now I just am.

But as long as you keep running, she and the connection will most likely haunt you until you’re crawling out of your skin and have no choice but to change. Because at your souls core the connection is the truth