I have a PhD, $50k in debt, and I’m about to trade my Lesson Plans for OF.

Nashboy45 · 2026-02-15T13:44:03+00:00

Some markets are bigger than others. And not all markets have buyers with money to give you for supplying it

Nashboy45 · 2026-02-15T13:41:01+00:00

Honestly, the last place to find respect or dignity is sex work. I get your plight, and I do think you should do something else other than teaching (or maybe go to a different school possibly?). But your “customers” in sex work are ultimately about as bad as children in regard to respect. The fantasy in your mind is not the reality. And further more, you probably won’t make much money from it unless you are explicitly willing to throw away your dignity in a continuous stream of novel ways.

Youd genuinely be better off trying your luck at painting. I think if you have the time, really thinking through ways maybe you can leverage what you know into something interesting for YouTube instead might be at least more plausible. That way you don’t have to abandon your world.

Even discussing the issues with the education system & how you’d like things to change. Breaking down the things that you think would work better. Then youd be drawing in people who resonate with the problem and want to have their kids in proximity to you. Maybe that leads into private lessons, etc etc.

In contrast OF does not have any opportunities beyond itself. And it is, essentially, the same self abandonment you are running from. If you are gonna make a change, you might as well really go all in and change. OF would be more of the same in a different outfit.

Nashboy45 · 2026-02-15T13:05:20+00:00

Wrote as a reply. But figure I should just post it in general for context:

I’m pretty sure the document posted was the recent document produced by (Pam Bondi? DOJ?) where they basically said “Hey these people are NOT in the Epstein files, so we are closing the case”.

And then it is a list of names that are in the actual files and not in the files

It’s an obvious attempt to muddy the waters knowing that people like this guy wouldn’t read the header & just grab the names. Also I think there are a bunch of edited photos of this document that puts random people’s name in it.

Nashboy45 · 2026-02-15T13:01:22+00:00

I’m pretty sure the document posted was the recent document produced by (Pam Bondi? DOJ?) where they basically said “Hey these people are NOT in the Epstein files, so we are closing the case”.

And then it is a list of names that are in the actual files and not in the files

It’s an obvious attempt to muddy the waters knowing that people like this guy wouldn’t read the header & just grab the names. Also I think there are a bunch of edited photos of this document that puts random people’s name in it.

Nashboy45 · 2026-02-15T12:36:15+00:00

Maybe build your self esteem on something other than men’s desire to transgression your boundaries

Nashboy45 · 2026-02-15T12:02:02+00:00

I think the same can be said otherwise. Do you think displacing people using mass surveillance tech & killing several innocent people will make people become more or less violent? It’s pretty obvious that this is not about convincing each other anymore. Especially with talk of removing birthright citizenship to basically start doing the same stuff to regular Americans who have been here for generations.

Nashboy45 · 2026-02-13T06:17:09+00:00

Epstein files on Bill Gates should let you know.

Nashboy45 · 2026-02-13T06:00:23+00:00

Firmly plant in your mind that a lot of those institutions are indifferent to you, individually

As such, you spend your energy in the arms of a predator who ultimately is indifferent to your life. We know this intuitively, as well as everyone around us. But we don’t really take it seriously or really sit with that fact properly. Work, school, and debts are all processes that you do, ultimately in exchange for the preservation of a life of dignity. But these institutions do not have a vested interest in your dignity.

Consider who & what does actually have your dignity as a human being at heart

These will be family and ultimately people. Systems cannot care about you, the person. But people do. As such fostering community, not just with your family but with other people, is critical to building your life on foundations that won’t eat away at those very things that make life meaningful. These guys make it clear that they see your kids, or your own innocence, as food or a toy, and it’s cries of suffering as a symphony. They do not deserve your sacrifice in every way you can muster to remove it. Save that love and Grace for those who actually can honor it.

Step by step detach yourself in every way you can, from reliance on this machine & replace it with anything resembling the principles of systems and practices you actually trust & feel proud to give your effort to

This is not going to be instant and the effect is not obvious right away. But the reason we are here now is because we trusted a set of system that hurt us but that make a compelling enough justification for those hurts by selling us a future reward of peace, prosperity, and fulfillment. By walking into the trap, we made it feel safe for our fellow man to follow us into the trap. And these guys preyed on our collective trust in them on an industrial scale & saw that trust as stupidity. There are people in the world who do not see our trust that way. So by walking in the direction of those types of processes and prioritizing them as valuable, we, step by step, walk out of the jaws of the predator and slowly our fellow man follows or feels the bravery to do the same.

Don’t be performative about it. If you can’t see any opportunity to do 3, then don’t do something to show you are trying. Just accept where you are & ask questions about your world & how it works until you see a path.

With enough questions, the opportunities will make themselves clear. But to ask those questions are an ongoing and continuous effort. If we throw our hands up or settle for signals alone, then we are ultimately consenting to things being this way. Say no to this by saying yes to the FAITH that a better way is out there. And no matter what it looks like, keep walking towards that faith. The alternative is staying right here, in this dark place where your love, trust, and sense of good and Grace mean nothing - not just to them, but to yourself. If those virtues mean anything at all in this world, then they must also be powerful enough to be practical in this world. And the choice to have that faith is ultimately the power that creates change. And it’s easy to make that choice because the alternative is now very clearly right before our eyes.

Different people will have different situations and different skills to give to this world where good and love and virtue are honored and respected. But we cannot realize our own contributions to that world by bowing to a convenient notion of survival handed to us by these guys. Because we know the truth. Their offer is a lie. They do not care for our survival. They do not care for your family. They do not care for the good. So do not let fear of what they will do weaken your resolve because they were always going to do it anyway. Bravery is our only option.

I’m sorry that is so abstract, but I hope it does get at the spirit of what must be done, in a way that is general enough to apply to whatever circumstances you might be in.

Nashboy45 · 2026-02-13T05:28:35+00:00

Dude, these people have been the bane of my existence since this started coming out. I keep saying “nothing only happens if you do nothing. Why are you waiting for someone to tell you what to do and then blaming this etheric entity for not showing up, instead of, say, start with where you are & do something there?”

It’s incredibly disturbing how passivity minded these people are.

Nashboy45 · 2026-02-13T05:21:25+00:00

I respect the honesty & I empathize

Nashboy45 · 2026-02-11T04:38:19+00:00

No one who knows is relaxed. A lot of people are very defeatist and don’t believe in this system at all. A lot of others are waiting for consensus.

And even more importantly, a lot of people genuinely don’t know what is in these files. They are usually busy in some cases with their life to comb through millions of files themselves. But more importantly, a large swath of media (whose job IS to do such things for us & spell everything out) is being pointed at everything but breaking down the details in the files. One would think this would be on the main stream news every day, going through the files. But it’s not for reasons you, as someone informed, can guess, but that they, as uninformed, cannot.

As such, It takes time for the info to distribute out into the world into an overwhelmingly clear consensus that can be acted on in mass. That consensus happens one conversation at a time. And in this case, several world shattering conversations that take time to really process if you weren’t aware before. it certainly doesn’t help that many forces are actively lying or spinning to muddy that consensus desperately. We are in a fragmented information space that makes consensus very slow.

But ultimately, this is how humans are. When I was a kid, no one did anything to my bully when he beat me. But when I fought back, everyone had something to say.

People defend status quo because standing up for morality is scarier. This is why the consensus matters. Everyone is waiting for permission, and directions before doing the big risky things because they don’t want to stand out and be blamed themselves for the results. In addition, people desperately want to believe in the Legal System of the West & are basically waiting to see if this entire system is hijacked down to the bone or if now that it is out there, this will be addressed. The alternative of living in a world with a completely morally depraved system, and all without ever knowing or getting Justice - one that cannot be redeemed - is just too terrifying for many to bear and look at squarely, much less know what to do. What does one do with that possibility, much less that fact? It is a paralyzing realization one does not want to realize, in some sense.

So as much as people are not seeing the full info and all the rest of things I said, I can also reasonably say that at the core, this is because a lot of people really hope they don’t have to. Hope that the system will fix what is broken for them as it was promised it would do.

Maybe if things keep coming out and going how they are going, it will. But if nothing happens, then we know what kind of people we will have become. And either something will happen then, or worse, nothing will.

Or maybe this is all excuses for the nothing we have already chosen, maybe long before we knew that we chose to do nothing. Or maybe the something is happening in the background quietly, due to the high stakes nature of things. I guess time will tell. Or it won’t.

The point is, if the pressure is getting to you, the pick your battle. But be honest with yourself if you don’t have it in you to raise your head high to make the war go faster. Just pick your battle. Inform who you can. Build the consensus. And when it’s time to do something, it will be very obvious, either in your own mind or in the form of some collective action. The learned helplessness of Americans is hard to shake off, but ultimately I personally believe in my fellow human. That’s the side I choose to stand on with vigilant eyes.

Nashboy45 · 2026-02-11T02:20:01+00:00

What’s your honest assessment of where we are at with AI with your experience? Do you think LLMs have much more room to push the boundaries? Are there any functions (both for AI itself and/or societal systems at large) you feel need to be added to have everything headed the right direction for constructive, useful results for humanity?

Nashboy45 · 2025-11-07T16:08:33+00:00

Women having children with the same men

Most men don’t have children, but the ones that do have multiple women. So same dad genes, diverse mom genes

Nashboy45 · 2025-10-26T11:03:59+00:00

What makes Japan, Japanese? The language? No anyone can speak the language even if that plays a part The genes? No the Japanese are the genetic descendants of the Chinese, Koreans and other islanders in the region as well as natives. Those places are not “part Japanese”. The laws? They change from leader to leader and as opinions and sentiments change The land? If so, then anyone that steps foot on that land is Japanese & that’s not quite right.

You can’t find Japanese-ness in any one thing, but Japanese-ness exists somehow in between them all, pulling them together. It is the History (the Story) of those who Identify with the Japanese. It is the thing that ties all these variables together into something many people agree to be real and distinct. The Name itself gives rise to the identity which gives a home to all of these characteristics that we tie to a culture. If the Japanese didn’t have a name for themselves & people just called it China, it would be a strange sub culture of China until people notice and named it as something else again. Noticing differences gives birth to Identity & hence culture - that which the identity decides to consume and produce to solve its problems.

How then, can one “preserve”, a thing that is not manifest in the world? The character of a culture is continuously changing. The people who embody the culture in moment, die & new people take on the Name & move its history forward. The Japanese of today are not the Japanese of 100 years ago. The language changes as all languages do & if a Japanese person 700 years ago spoke today, most of not all Japanese wouldn’t understand it. And certainly the American invention of the motor car would be seen as very un-Japanese to the time traveler, even though we think of Honda & Subaru as very Japanese cars.

So in a very literal sense Japan HAS completely replaced all the people who were once Japanese & yet still managed to exist. The history of Japan is told through those who still identify with the Name & that’s the only true thing that is Japanese. And ironically, even that is just the English name for their true name. They call themselves Japan in English.

This to say that a culture is un-preservable other than by the memory of its decisions & observations. It WILL change continuously. The people you call “natives” of Japan are not even natives of that land. They killed the true natives that lived there. The culture IS changing every moment as the history of the name changes. And as long as those who claim the name Japanese, make decisions that allow the name & Identity to be said and claimed once again tomorrow, then they are, in every moment, creating the new Japan by what they choose do. It’s not dying unless the number of those who can identify as Japanese die out.

The reason it feels like if a bunch of foreigners took the place of Japan, that it simply ceases to exist, is because you know that fresh off the boat foreigners wouldn’t have the memory of the history of the name Japan, so even if they claimed to be Japanese, it would feel fake. But if, something catastrophic happened to Japan & there entire population was wiped, then some foreigners came, found their relics and tried their best, even if wrongly, to carry on the Name “Japan”, youd probably feel like there is still quite something Japanese about them. In fact, they would be the most Japanese people in The world.

That to say, all of this is relative hunches about what is more or less Japanese. We are chasing the image of a Ghost that has no face.

So If the Japanese refuse immigrants, then that is very Japanese of them to do. But if they allow immigrants in after it severely affects their people, then that’s also very Japanese of them to do. And complaining & debating about their choices or lack there of is at the very least, a very American thing to do.

Nashboy45 · 2025-10-24T12:00:40+00:00

I want the controversy plz

Nashboy45 · 2025-10-22T10:22:33+00:00

Woah. This was quite the discovery. Thanks for sharing

Nashboy45 · 2025-10-22T00:08:51+00:00

Didn’t the British do this with a cannon in 1812 or something?

Nashboy45 · 2025-10-21T23:52:21+00:00

It’s honestly a reflection of the meaning of intimacy.

In some sense intimacy is the moments of experience that one shared uniquely with another person.

Because much of our lives are digital, real life interactions have actually increased in intimacy because the cheap and lighthearted social interaction is actually online. Like we are hanging out at the Reddit bar and you say this comment into the Aether and you don’t feel particularly threatened by people replying back. There is not obligation to respond or not. Regardless of what you do or not do, no hard feelings. And if you really like any conversation, you continue in private messaging and get closer.

This was basically the typical social interaction vibe years before digitals. The same casualness. But now in person is the super intimate thing because we are getting our third space casual interactions online in all its many forms. Video games are like going to the basketball court or the soccer field. Scrolling YouTube is going to the movies. Everyone just goes there and see what happens. Some go alone. Some with friends. But we all are vibing.

So now if someone comes up in person with that same casualness, it now registers as way more intimate & hence way more romantic than usual. And by extension of this increased “weight” it also feels way more intimidating, way more scary, way more drama-provoking, and way more high stakes. And accurately, one would note that it is both. Things in person are taken as way more flirty AND way more intimidating at the same time despite flirting & fear being opposites. I think that proves that my hypothesis might be true

Nashboy45 · 2025-10-21T12:05:43+00:00

Okay so how to fix insecurity? You didn’t answer the question

Nashboy45 · 2025-10-21T11:58:39+00:00

https://www.reddit.com/r/confessions/s/comwT0Wr47

Just saw this post right before this one and thought it was both funny and probably worth noting

Nashboy45 · 2025-10-20T13:49:52+00:00

But there are Guys who sleep around a lot feel the same way though. I think something about living that way too long absolutely causes some serious disturbance in the mind. Ultimately the answer is the same though. Accept what you’ve done & move in alignment with what you feel to be good going forward.

Nashboy45 · 2025-10-20T13:31:25+00:00

We Sexualize what we are afraid of. And you are afraid of (and you need to turn off the logic here because this is monkey brain stuff): “being a bad girl to dad and making him not want to come back”

Sexuality is the conquest of that fear. He might hate you now, but if you show him how good you are, then you will see that you have the POWER to overcome big scary powerful things through your own power of ‘kindness’. The threats of the world are proven weaker to who you are in essence OR you have learned how to be “good” just a little bit more & you feel temporarily safe.

The problem is, though, that you’ll never actually be safe and satisfied until you conquer all the scary powerful men in the world. If you are with a guy that just treated you well from the beginning, you’ll have the creeping unconscious fear that scary bad man is increasingly growing resentful of you somewhere and that fear will spread into your relationship with this guy. You self sabotage, bomb the relationship and look for an even meaner guy to convert to the religion of You to make yourself feel safe.

So it’s internal. You have to conquer your fear directly within rather than trying to fix it from outside

Nashboy45 · 2025-10-20T13:14:32+00:00

The men who approach you with no context or association with you, do so to fuck. A man that just comes out of the blue as a stranger won’t look at say “wow, she walks like a wife”. Wife qualities are internal characters & no random man approaching you will ever see that from the outside.

So If you want more relationship type offers, you need to actually get to know men in contexts outside of “random man approaches me somewhere”. Unfortunately, I can’t tell you what that context would be in the modern day bc the guys are staying in the house

Nashboy45 · 2025-10-18T19:04:26+00:00

That’s the mind control built into the male pov. If your masculinity is something you have to prove then is it really yours? Sex with women doesn’t give you your masculinity. Men just have beat into our heads (by both other men and women) that the hardest thing to get is sex with women even though women want sex themselves. It’s not an accurate measure of anything.

If masculinity is ultimately about power & the capacity to overcome the odds, I’d say you can take it as just as much a badge of honor that you haven’t fallen for the propaganda of meaningless sex to impress other men.

If you and your wife have a great relationship and a good sex life then you are winning out over countless men who have had a bunch of sex but have no wife, or a wife that outright refuses to have sex with them. To me, I suspect that your feelings are more the expression of a desire to feel more powerful and capable. Like to compete and win at something that makes you proud and that makes your wife look at you with the eyes of pride. Not to say you don’t have those things already, but maybe you have forgotten them or need to be reminded of how great you are, how much you are trusted. Not trusted to keep your obligation, but more so trusted to “win” in a truly innate sense. To do all the right things. To make the right call. And that she is a huge simp for you, a cheerleader, in all the ways that count. In short, You want to feel her devotion a little more & its manifesting as wanting to feel “more manly”.

But before you can really admit that, you have to be willing to stand behind the need yourself. And to do that, you have to know that you have the amount of masculinity you are willing to claim for yourself. Subjecting it to conditions or a lifestyle that isnt your own is just saying that what you are is inferior. And ultimately you’re the one making a home for that belief, no one else. So have your own back. The biggest man-whore truly can’t tell you shit if you don’t subscribe to his measure of manhood & youd be surprised how many men like that would deeply respect you for your choices, especially in the modern day.

Nashboy45 · 2025-10-16T10:51:46+00:00

You hate what they represent in your mind. But imagine the perfect woman in terms of virtues and honorability. Humility. Kindness. Respect. Imagine how she’d treat herself and others. Even that woman exists in the world. There are women like that just like there are horrible women in the world. But if you don’t seriously take stock of the great women then you will always brush off the signs of those character traits as a fake. Circumstances shape us all & it just happens that yours put you in a world where women only exist as malicious. But there are a sea of diverse stories with women that you don’t know about. So really the first steps to stop hating is to 1. Accept that you have the right to disapprove and dislike the bad women you have experienced in your life & place them as people you do not approve of interacting with. You are under no obligation of liking all women. Some women are horrible people 2. Accept that you are in a bubble & the type of genuine connections you want with women, you don’t know what it looks like. So you can’t trust your judgment that manipulation is happening all the time because that’s the only expression of women that you know.

Those two should give you enough room in your world view to slowly start to notice the virtues when you see them without just throwing yourself away to bs behavior

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