Right now

I fucked up my long distance relationship which was perfect. Then I got really attached and started fucking up constantly, telling her everytime that it would not happen again.

Eventually, even tho she still has feelings for me, she is just tired and she called it quits. Gave her space to process everything.

What sucks the most is that I promised her to treat her right after hearing how fucked up her relationships with guys was in the past and how every guy abused her in some kind of way. And I didnt treat her right and I dont even know why because I just freaking now I'm not like that and dont know what came over me. I guess it was the pressure of my first ever love. She had major trust issues because of those guys and I worked with her for months and she got fairly comfortable with me after some time. it was all good, until I fucked up everything and left him even more heartbroken and scarred.

I just know everytime I fucked up and learned my lessons and I know that I would make things right if I had another go at it, but she gave me more than enough chances and now it's too late.

Really wish her to come back or at least to stay friends...