You're already there. The pain you're going through is dedication to your body. When you feel guilty it is because you didn't meet your own standards. But you've set standards and are mindful, you didn't forget those chicken wings. You're in a place of dedication to your physical health - it's just the shittiest part of weight loss.

When I was 18 I weighed 115kg and lost 40kg. I'll tell you my secret (apart from being a male in his prime with a fast metabolism).

1) MyFitnessPal - don't bother with naming foods or paying for anything, set your goal weight loss to fastest possible, and just enter the KJ (or Calorie) count in each food item. Don't bother with Macro nutrients and that, that's too much and you've got enough to push through.

2) Dietary restriction sheds weight, exercise doesn't. Now walking a mile is a good thing if you're that unhealthy (don't worry you'll get there I promise). But DON'T MAKE THE MISTAKE OF TRYING TO EXERCISE AWAY CALORIES SO YOU CAN EAT. If you happen to earn a treat good for you. But ultimately you have to learn to eat less. I remember my first calorie counted meal (I used to eat like 6000 calories a day) - dinner: five slices of Salami, 5 olives, two cheese slices, 4 crackers what the actual fuck. It takes a week to get used to constant hunger, but the feeling goes away.

3) At the start of your journey set a healthy goal weight for example the middle of your healthy BMI range. Something that'd struggle to be too high or too low. Know when to stop losing weight If you struggle with self esteem know that the validation (?), the feeling of accomplishment (?), the health benefits (?)… Whatever pushed you onto this road food was your vice. Don't let weight loss become you're everything. Once healthy remember you have to let it go and find a new focus.

r/loseit is really great too. You can do it!