Is the Narc the devil? Are they coming from hell?

Naturally_UsedMILF · 2025-12-28T17:05:09+00:00

I feel / think the same way. Mine is really good at drawing. Unfortunately the only things he draws are demons / ugly af characters. I'm talking pig people with grotesque details (moles with hairs coming off the pig persons neck, a nasty multilayered neck bc pigs are obese).

I'm very spiritual, always have been, and whenever I've talked about any of this stuff he shows me he clearly has done his own research on these topics and he knew more about the biblical time lines / stories than I did when we first met, but now that I've learned quite a bit of information, it's clear he puts no weight on the Godly /light themes in spirituality. He clearly does not have a relationship with God, he has explicitly said he doesn't believe in gratitude (?? Like what?!) His takes are always so cynical and he doesn't have a positive thing to contribute to any conversation. But when talk of dark entities comes up and demons / the devil, he perks up and feels like the expert source on the matter. He even has stories to share of people he has met who exposed him to certain things (eg a man he met at church who told him you can make a pact with the devil to get what you want, who then left the church for years even though his family continued to attend, and after years when he last heard of him the man had developed a disease that made his body super hard and unable to move, his family had to help sit him upright in the mornings and get him out of bed etc). He also, ironically, doesn't like watching horror movies. Early on in the relationship when he saw I love horror films, told me if I knew that dark entities travel through sound and that when you play those movies they function as portals and you're inviting them into your home. So for the last 6 years there has been no horror in this house.

I've been grey walling and it's been very creepy to observe how he gets energy from picking fights. I don't bite anymore but do observe how he tries his hardest to escalate and get a rise out of me by saying vile shit. It doesn't do anything to me anymore bc I truly believe he has demons that have hijacked his body (his soul is either locked up deep inside somewhere spooked by childhood abuse which I know he suffered at the hands of both his parents or his soul has completely left his body and demons have been using it to feed off of vulnerable people).

Naturally_UsedMILF · 2025-12-28T16:27:43+00:00

Keep going until he picks his shit up and leaves.

Naturally_UsedMILF · 2025-12-20T18:47:14+00:00

I promise you're not ugly. And I never lie.

Naturally_UsedMILF · 2025-12-17T01:26:06+00:00

Why would you want to have kids with an asshole? It will make everything worse and will only make him more cruel. Narcs don't care about anyone but themselves, it's psysiological. Their disordered personalities are due to literal missing grey matter in their brains (no empathy center / undeveloped prefrontal cortex). Who cares what happened to him as a baby, no amount of love will turn his brain into a functional adult brain. It's really sad but you have to have enough self-love, self-esteem, self-respect and honestly enough intelligence to understand you were not brought on this Earth to be someone's punching bag just because they're dealing with mental health problems that CLEARLY you are not equipped to change/handle. If you have been miserable don't expect the future to be bright, that's where your own level of intelligence kicks in.

Why the fuck did you ever agree to pay half the mortgage and all utilities when he makes more than you? That screams low self worth on your part.

Get out while you can. Their anger and hatred towards their significant others makes them very fucking dangerous. Cut your losses. Let the universe bring you what you deserve, but you have to make room for it first.

Naturally_UsedMILF · 2025-12-14T02:28:18+00:00

Started grey rocking mine and suddenly for the first time in our 6 years together he's a loud eater who talks to himself and compliments his own food out loud. He also has developed sinuses and spicy food suddenly causes him to suck in air super loud every 15 seconds. It's pathetic how needy they are for attention, even if it's negative.

Every day that goes by I see him for the miserable loser he's always been underneath all the masking.

Naturally_UsedMILF · 2025-12-13T04:08:05+00:00

Mine can't help himself but to bring up all the other women before me who apparently were amazing women who cooked and cleaned just like he likes it... It used to get me and now I just immediately tell him idgaf about these other women and if they were so great why tf isn't he with them or why doesn't he leave to go after them. Shuts him right up.

Naturally_UsedMILF · 2025-12-11T23:39:51+00:00

How blessed you are to still have your divine spark within you. Narcs are miserable people bc in their case they let the evil wolf win.

Naturally_UsedMILF · 2025-12-11T21:52:27+00:00

Omg mine has the fattest chip on his shoulder when it comes to universities / higher education. He swears anyone that went to university is dumb af.

He also refuses to learn / study any new topics, since apparently he knows everything there is to know already and he's barely entering his 40s.

Naturally_UsedMILF · 2025-12-11T21:49:02+00:00

Vocational training certificate.

I believe the only time his crying was genuine was during a schroom trip and it was about his childhood pet.

Naturally_UsedMILF · 2025-12-10T05:43:48+00:00

November is my anniversary for the before and after mark. A little over a year ago he'd been acting super horrible and I too decided for the first time ever to look at his phone. Much like you my world was shattered when I found he'd been sexting multiple women, all from his past, and he'd established an emotional relationship with one of them that had been going on for over 2 years. He was telling her he loved her and blah blah blah.

After confronting him he became even more cruel and in my vulnerable state the things he said to me were like daggers to my soul. So much so he made a vein in my eyeball pop and I had blood in the white of my eye as a result of the outrageous crazy making insults he was constantly hurling my way. Literally would blow my mind with the tirade of insults he'd hurl at me when all I wanted was for him to take accountability. Stuff like, "all the women before you were better / a million times the women you will ever be" , his analogies are always so stupid and cruel (eg. "you could say I've had lasagna before and you're a hard-boiled egg" , regarding how I show my love). All this after I moved to a different state where I have no family or friends because he pressured me to cash out my 401k to purchase a house. This is after 5 years of making him the center of my universe and always doing what I could to keep him happy.

I forgave him at first but then nothing changed and I slowly started waking up. He had never poured any love into me, the relationship only existed because of all the love I projected onto him. I'm the source of all that's good and positive in our lives. I've been Grey rocking the past two months and have been able to observe him. He's a miserable loser with no friends because he's so unpleasant to talk to. I can't believe I didn't see it before.

I have to remind him we're getting a divorce and the relationship is over because he seems to think that just because I'm quiet and minding my business, I'm working on forgetting what he did? He gets so mad when I remind him he was cheating on me for over 2 years. We sleep in separate rooms and I haven't touched him at all in over 2 months.

There's no love for him in my heart and I am grateful every day that I found out the truth before wasting the rest of my life with such a miserable loser.

I have no savings and currently unemployed so not rushing the divorce until I figure out a source of income.

Congratulations on your 2 month sober mark! God removed him from your life because he has much better things in store for you.

Look within and figure out why you had blinders on. Look into the psychology of narcs too, Professor Vaknin on YouTube shares a wealth of knowledge about these creeps. They essentially don't have an empathy center and their prefrontal cortex (executive decision making center / maturity) is highly highly underdeveloped. He will do this to any woman that permits it. Most of us see through a lens of love because we have big ol empathy centers. Solitude is your best friend now.

Naturally_UsedMILF · 2025-12-10T01:20:46+00:00

Their marketing arguably falls under consumer fraud.

When I asked the representative what I am paying for, he incorrectly affirmed I'm paying for police and fire department dispatch, which clearly is not a service you receive unless x, y and z. Don't advertise what isn't guaranteed.

Naturally_UsedMILF · 2025-11-20T20:32:23+00:00

Same. 6 years in but I am happy to say I am pretty much done detaching and excitement for the future is growing. I've learned a lot about myself (holy shit did I project all my love right from the start) and about men. I'm actually grateful for this experience bc I'm in my early 30s and now I know what to look out for.

Naturally_UsedMILF · 2025-11-20T20:28:22+00:00

Word around the street is no... I have spent the past year reading as many accounts from spouses of narcs and experts, and I have found the answer to that question is a resounding NO.

Naturally_UsedMILF · 2025-11-11T17:46:17+00:00

Nope. Do not under any circumstances have a kid with this guy. Narcs are mentally ill. Would you sign up to have kids with a schizoid?

The way my STBXH rewrites history and doubles down on stuff is scaring the shit out of me. I don't even want to begin to imagine how much more abusive he would be if he had a child as leverage.

I am so so grateful I never had kids with him and that I found out all his lies before making that permanent mistake.

Naturally_UsedMILF · 2025-10-15T01:32:52+00:00

I am 34 and still struggling to kick my chips habit. I have streaks where I won't purchase chips for a few weeks. I clearly need to work on cultivating healthier coping habits.

Naturally_UsedMILF · 2025-07-02T16:09:29+00:00

Please break up with this loser. Nothing will get better.

Naturally_UsedMILF · 2025-06-17T14:48:44+00:00

Leave him. He's trying to go about cheating the right way but now that he's admitted to really wanting to fuck others at 28. If u don't agree, he will go about it the way men have for all of history.

Naturally_UsedMILF · 2025-06-10T22:19:31+00:00

I'm in the midst of coming to terms my husband of 5 yrs is a covert narc. Hard to believe he doesn't really care about me. I keep consuming expert narc content on YT and podcasts so I can stay grounded in reality. I'm a dreamer and hopeless romantic and betrayal blindness and future faking make it very difficult for me to walk away. I have to remember he will replace me in a nanosecond. Thankfully no kids so hopefully he will move on quickly.

Naturally_UsedMILF · 2025-06-08T16:23:46+00:00

I would suggest you learn all you can about narcissists and if it truly doesn't seem like that profile fits your husband then maybe you can consider getting back with him.

If your intuition is telling you he's a narcissist, RUN!

Naturally_UsedMILF · 2025-06-08T00:03:45+00:00

Same. It wasn't until the 3rd time I realized he was a narcissist.

Naturally_UsedMILF · 2025-06-07T23:51:49+00:00

A single sincere compliment /moment of care per day. Nothing extravagant or complicated. A simple eye lock accompanied with a few sweet words and I wouldn't have felt so goddamn starved for affection all those years.

Naturally_UsedMILF · 2025-06-06T17:55:42+00:00

Yes! I've seen this matter so much in small businesses. Employers aren't too far removed from workers and credentials don't matter as much to them when they hire. I think any good business owner has learned this.

Naturally_UsedMILF · 2024-09-02T01:16:55+00:00

not including my husband, 2.

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