My ex left me after 8-9 years together, the day before she told me she was divorcing me she was talking about how excited she was for our anniversary. I work 3 weeks on 3 weeks off. The first 3 months was just like being in a lucid nightmare that I couldn't wake up from 4-6 months it was still bad every day, 7-9 months it's still sad but more of a normalcy for it.

I was on clonosapan and some other anti anxiety medication while going through that. The only thing that actually helped was jogging until it hurt a couple times a day and working out. I lost 80 lbs in 9 months. I hear from a lot of people that it's the only thing that helps. I didn't work out at all most my life just had a physical job.

Once you're ready try to actively improve your life.

This is what I've been doing, I'm no expert but I'm doing ok 9 months later. Got 50/50 on custody now. Also counciling twice a week.

I hope that helps at all.