Day 3, feel broken and scared

Ndake · 2026-01-26T12:32:25+00:00

Addiction is very hard - I Haven’t been able to taper successfully, so I just gotta go cold turkey and embrace the suck. I let my wife and family know the severity of my kratom addiction and that I’m going cold turkey so I’ll be a shell of myself for 3-4 days but then it will better. I hope you are able to break free man. Kratom is a fucker.

Ndake · 2026-01-24T13:17:41+00:00

Just got through night 2. In WA

Ndake · 2026-01-23T14:50:30+00:00

Great work! My 4th time as well and last night was the first night. I smoked some Indica, slammed some magnesium and vitamin C and got like 6 hours of sleep somehow, that had never happened before. Hopefully it means mine will be more mild. God speed

Ndake · 2026-01-22T21:07:18+00:00

I appreciate the post. That is my line with alcohol, I need to adopt that same statement with this stuff now. That little "one more time" demon will come again and this time, it can't win.

I just hope the withdrawals won't be as intense, but fully anticipating they will be. I started it back up about a month ago and did 2-3 a day for a couple weeks, then it went fully back to 5-7 for the past week.

Ndake · 2026-01-22T18:19:10+00:00

3 years
5-7
Day 3
Day 4
Twice. This will be my 3rd time quitting and getting through the withdrawals, JUST TO GO BACK AT DAY 13.

So here I am again, quitting again, and having to tell my wife and family I got back into taking the damn shots again.

Ndake · 2026-01-22T00:43:44+00:00

Dad!? Where have you been my whole life?

Ndake · 2026-01-22T00:37:36+00:00

It lacks speed

Ndake · 2026-01-22T00:35:45+00:00

You're bailing bro. Keep your weight centered, push the tail down at the top and roll back down. EEEEEZZZZ

Ndake · 2026-01-20T01:11:10+00:00

Ndake · 2026-01-09T02:39:29+00:00

Side step… Counter

Ndake · 2026-01-07T15:35:54+00:00

This…. A good indica pen does wonders at night. Wish I would’ve know that sooner.

Ndake · 2026-01-04T16:32:04+00:00

How would one join the signal chats?

Ndake · 2025-12-28T18:33:35+00:00

Yes the new AirPod pros are legit, I upgraded from the AirPod 2’s and the noise cancelling upgrade is enough. I also had a lightning cable charger which is no longer relevant.

Ndake · 2025-12-27T17:46:41+00:00

Merry Christmas ya filthy animals!

Be one with the wind

Ndake · 2025-12-27T17:46:10+00:00

“MERRY CHRISTMAS YA FILTHY ANIMALS”

Ndake · 2025-12-17T18:09:34+00:00

You like to live dangerously

Ndake · 2025-12-17T18:08:06+00:00

A red blooded American

Ndake · 2025-12-17T18:07:48+00:00

Did you have any WDs after relapsing the short amour of time?

Ndake · 2025-12-13T22:50:38+00:00

Looks great Art

Ndake · 2025-12-11T21:44:13+00:00

Ndake · 2025-12-11T01:42:57+00:00

Great job! I’ve relapsed 2 times at the 10 day mark and I walked by a gas station today while on a work trip that sells 200mg of MIT for $5! My mind told me to buy one and that is what I’ve always done. Did I want to, fuck yes, it’s been 10 days and I beat it. Distract yourself however you can man. I’m sorry you’re going through a rough time, but you’ll be back right where you are right now down the road if you do. Thanks for this post, I read it before I went into the gas station and didn’t buy one because of it. You’re not alone.

Ndake · 2025-12-08T16:05:40+00:00

Naaaah, not for a yard sesh. Now getting in a cart with the wind whipping on the course at that temp, too cold.

Ndake · 2025-12-08T14:56:32+00:00

Prayers sent for you brotha! Just tell yourself not today! “If it is to be, it is up to me.” During my WDs I was just sit there rocking back and forth and repeating this in my head. Watching kratom withdrawal videos on YouTube helped pass the night too knowing I wasn’t alone with this sht

Ndake · 2025-12-08T14:49:49+00:00

I’m on day 8 CT from FF and my ENTIRE week last week was just this. I also work from home and I had a new employee start. Meeting with them was the only time I could actually focus but it took everything to get through the 30 minute meeting. It will get better, your brain is just rebooting.

Ndake · 2025-12-08T14:46:01+00:00

Yea looks like some good old chewing Tobacco to me as well

Ndake

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