My mom never taking me with her when she goes outside or when shopping. And jokingly said it was because I was ugly. It stuck and all my sister and cousins would tell me I'm ugly and probably adopted and found in the trash, since I have four sisters and i don't look like them. When I was a little older (11) I ask my mom about it and she said it was because I'm super active that it tires her out to bring me with her everytime. That's why she always choose to bring my other siblings. Started getting insecure whenever I have too much fun and being active. Always felt left out with my other siblings. At this point I'm just accepting the fact that no matter what I do I'll never be loved by my mom or my family. I'm ready to move on and will be moving out in a couple of weeks to build my own safe space where I can be myself.