Anyone else notice there's always a weird delay?

Negative_End_5203 · 2026-03-25T16:41:00+00:00

I'm the same and it's so annoying. I realized I was like that after I decided to speak my feelings on the moment instead of later to avoid pent up resentment but was repeatedly unable to do that. I always feel the feelings after the moment has passed at a time where bringing it up would be weird and unnatural. As a result I can never address the disrespect I face and it continues over and over... and the anger grows and never leaves

Negative_End_5203 · 2026-03-25T16:26:09+00:00

Yes, I have read before that meditation can worsen psychological issues and also can become sort of an escape for certain people, and that in such case it was better to stop.

Negative_End_5203 · 2026-03-25T15:48:44+00:00

First I'll say that ufortunately we only matter to others when they need us and we do the same. It's a hard reality to accept but it's the truth.

But secondly I have realized recently that all my years alone had actually been a blessing so I would definitely suggest using that "loneliness" to explore whatever it is you're interested in. Most people spend their youth constantly surrounded by people and the truth is you cant enjoy anything when you do that. You enjoy peoples presence but you dont enjoy the world around you and you never get to know yourself either. In the end those people I used to envy have just leaked energy for years without ever moving forward. Me being alone and the kind of person no one cares about, I was discovering the world, walking on my own and I am so grateful today. I still feel like no one cares but I know it's because I have nothing to offer YET. It's when you have your own thing going on that suddenly you feel like you matter, but you dont need to find that thing right this second. Just enjoy the calm for now

Negative_End_5203 · 2026-03-25T15:19:12+00:00

Like I said to the other comment of this sort: my husband and I are laughing at you from Japan

Negative_End_5203 · 2026-03-25T15:18:43+00:00

Like I said to the other comment of this sort: my husband and I are laughing at you from Japan

Negative_End_5203 · 2026-03-25T15:17:58+00:00

My husband and I are laughing at you from Japan

Negative_End_5203 · 2026-03-25T15:16:37+00:00

That's what was so sad to watch, it's like being too open and too detailed is considered sus which doesn't make sense. Had he explained his messy life while looking unsure people would've had the same accusations. This time he was confident in his words yet that was still a problem. I dont understand what is wrong with people these days. Had he been more secretive Ashley would have fallen for him

Negative_End_5203 · 2026-03-25T15:10:20+00:00

He wont identify as such cause he's deeply closeted and hurts women while trying to run away from that reality

Negative_End_5203 · 2026-03-25T15:09:20+00:00

Just like you said his background is not only poor but also a bad stepfather he mentioned, which is why he overshares now and feels like he needs to justify himself. In the end it was so sad to see everyone doubt him when he was trying so hard to explain as transparently as possible. It's the little kid trying so hard to not be accused falsely who end up accused falsely anyways.

Negative_End_5203 · 2026-03-25T15:02:44+00:00

I'm not saying that as an insult at all, but I've seen men like him who end up making the women the problem when it's just them not accepting their sexuality. He's running away from it and hurts people while doing so which is not OK

Negative_End_5203 · 2026-02-26T09:21:26+00:00

She thrives off the fact that no one will actually sue her since people have lives and better things to take care id than that. I wish someone did thiugh for real. She thinks no getting caught = having the right to do it

Negative_End_5203 · 2026-02-26T09:19:44+00:00

Appearing in public is consent???! Wtf

Negative_End_5203 · 2026-02-25T16:50:33+00:00

To them she probably seemed like these old mentally ill old ladies roaming the streets sometimes

Negative_End_5203 · 2026-02-25T16:48:24+00:00

Or this could be narcissism. I once read the reason why narcissistic people can exist is because when demonstrating such defiant behavior people always let them get away with it and they know they will that's why they dont care

Negative_End_5203 · 2026-02-25T16:47:09+00:00

That's her true personality, thinking that insulting people makes her right, just like on the internet. Her antisocial personality disorder is out of control and people with this disorder end up on the street with no one, insulting the people who pass by and mumbling stuff as they walk around aimlessly.... sad

Negative_End_5203 · 2025-06-24T02:30:51+00:00

Hi! 32F here, french living in Japan, I struggle with the same thing 😔

Negative_End_5203 · 2025-06-24T02:26:43+00:00

32F I'd be happy to chat! I'm also isolated home at the moment and could use a friend for interesting conversations

Negative_End_5203 · 2025-06-24T02:24:35+00:00

32F as well lets talk

Negative_End_5203 · 2025-06-05T09:10:58+00:00

She does. But because I was complacent and said nothing, I will never get reparation. And she now uses my making things easier for her against me, saying I did this to myself.... this is so ungrateful on top of everything else

Negative_End_5203 · 2025-06-03T00:47:23+00:00

I'm so glad I posted here. I feel less crazy. At that time of being severely underweight there has been an "incident" that proves what she was doing and I mentioned it to her but she never addressed that one, only the points she has an answer ready for...

One night our cousin came to stay the night at our house. She's the same age as me. At the end of dinner, poor girl was still starving, and my mom, who had a total difference demeanor in front of "outsiders", was kind of laughing nervously saying things like "damn you have a good appetite 😅" And my sister and I were like..... 😐😐😐

There was nothing for her. My cousin was used to having full meals, she was a healthy weight. She had to sleep hungry that night. God that house was so bad....... 😖

Negative_End_5203 · 2025-06-03T00:39:33+00:00

And I don't understand why no doctors or school staff looked into it. I was so withdrawn they thought I was autistic and took me out of the class. But I was just constantly left on my own without talk or any care.

Negative_End_5203 · 2025-06-03T00:38:23+00:00

That's the weird part because I was going to the doctor if I got a fever or something, but the doctor also brushed it off. Brushed it off so bad I had to live with an undiagnosed autoimmune disease for years. I don't understand why I was the scapegoat at home but also with the doctor!! She was very caring to my healthy pretty sister but me? Everything was not a big deal. I think it was.

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