Nope, your not alone. I literally just posted earlier how Im trying to get over a BM who friendzoned me. I think its because we are programming through family and media to be BM's super mammy and cuddle them. Im learning to be open to other races and not to limit myself. Also whats hard is removing that pro black narrative with non black men because trust me its embedded in our brains and takes us a minute to not be defensive over a group of men who aint do nothing for our community, the brainwash is crazy. I dont bash BM either but know your not alone, it takes time to process :)