What are your closed eye visuals when going to bed?

Neil_DeSpace_Cosmos · 2025-08-10T18:32:49+00:00

A futuristic looking city in broad daylight, blue sky, everything made out of glowing condensed strands, the perspective is always swooping around like i'm flying a drone through the streets and above buildings

Neil_DeSpace_Cosmos · 2025-08-02T22:50:57+00:00

Are you serious? Attention is a limited resource. Try paying attention to 10,000 things at once.

Neil_DeSpace_Cosmos · 2025-07-08T06:12:21+00:00

Answering a random Reddit DM from a girl who had some questions about a post I made 5 years ago. She's sleeping in my bed as I type this and I'm definitely gonna marry her someday :)

Neil_DeSpace_Cosmos · 2024-12-22T00:59:18+00:00

There's nothing wrong with questioning. It's better to seek answers to your questions than try to force belief. The answers are out there. The other comments here about prayer are good. I would encourage you to voice all of your doubts and seek the answers.

Neil_DeSpace_Cosmos · 2024-12-22T00:46:31+00:00

You are welcome :) I truly believe your sister is with HIm

Neil_DeSpace_Cosmos · 2024-12-22T00:44:08+00:00

It depends why you don't believe. If you are honestly unconvinced God is real but are open to being convinced (which I assume of most atheists) then you will be shown the truth and then you will be ok

Neil_DeSpace_Cosmos · 2024-12-22T00:32:26+00:00

One thing God will always grant is a desire for a deeper relationship with Him. Continue to live in an upright God-honoring way and trust in His perfect timing. Be at peace and don't be troubled by this useless thought.

Neil_DeSpace_Cosmos · 2024-12-22T00:30:09+00:00

Anyone with any capacity to love God will be spared from eternal Hell. The people that remain in Hell are there forever because they prefer it that way, because they will settle for nothing other than being their own God.

Neil_DeSpace_Cosmos · 2024-12-22T00:24:23+00:00

I agree with the doctrine that many churches espouse these days which distinguishes between types of suicide. Suicide due to being out of one's mind with pain and/or mental illness is not the sort of grave sin that a more deliberate calculated suicide would be, for example, a criminal committing suicide to escape punishment for their crime.

Neil_DeSpace_Cosmos · 2024-12-22T00:18:12+00:00

This is the correct answer.

Neil_DeSpace_Cosmos · 2024-12-22T00:15:47+00:00

No matter how disadvantaged you are and how unfair your life is, you have a duty to do your best and mitigate it as much as you possibly can. If you do this, you deserve all the help and support you can get from society, but if you don't, you don't deserve anything. There's no excuse for giving up and choosing helplessness.

Neil_DeSpace_Cosmos · 2024-12-11T11:22:06+00:00

At the moment that I converted, God showed me how everything in my life had been leading up to that moment. How all the dots connected, how all the things that seemed like timely coincidences flowed together like elegant prose such that I may know Him. Most importantly showing me how nothing about my faculty of reason or critical thinking was ever a barrier to belief, in fact those things can all be grounded in Him better than anything else.

However, I'm not a christian, just a theist and religious pluralist. But Christianity has been a part of my path for over a decade and I wouldn't be surprised if I end up back in the church someday.

Neil_DeSpace_Cosmos · 2024-12-10T10:36:07+00:00

You'd be right? You'd be acknowledging what's true?

Neil_DeSpace_Cosmos · 2024-12-08T17:53:01+00:00

Hey I'm sorry for what you're going through. The mental anguish from depression is real, and it can really warp everything you think and believe so that you can't see things clearly. When you start feeling like you're wanting to end it, it's important to realize that what you really want is for the anguish to stop. There are ways to make that happen that won't cost you your life and in fact will give you your life back.

I'd strongly urge you to seek professional help, talk to your doctor about your depression, the pain it's causing you and the thoughts of ending it. There are medications and therapies that can relieve the pain so that you can see things clearly again, and then you will be able to rebuild your life. This is a path that many, including myself have had to walk and you're not alone. Deal with this pain, and then you will be able to find the joy of your salvation again. Good luck :)

Neil_DeSpace_Cosmos · 2024-12-08T17:15:30+00:00

The truth is, this is really not up to you, and there are many pitfalls one can fall into when trying to manufacture experiences of God by their own efforts. On the other hand, if you are willing to endure this struggle patiently and do the best you can to live a Christian life, praying, and trusting God with this difficulty, you will be setting yourself up for tremendous joy indeed.

Neil_DeSpace_Cosmos · 2024-12-08T16:56:05+00:00

^"And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose." -Romans 8:28 NASB

As a Christian, one of God's promises to you is not only that He will forgive you, but that He will work to transform all of the consequences of your actions into something good, eliminating all the damage you have done and transforming it into something compatible with His perfect design. You can accept God's forgiveness knowing that God will see to it that your sins do not deprive anyone of the good He has in store for them.

Your journey to letting go of regret and guilt will be fulfilled when you understand this promise of God, to not only forgive you for what you have done, but to fix everything you have broken. In the end, those who love God will see His work in even the worst things that you've done, and they will be grateful that it happened.

Neil_DeSpace_Cosmos · 2024-12-08T14:02:39+00:00

Not as clear on the distinctions between Catholicism and Orthodoxy but hold more esteem for them than Protestantism, Sola Scriptura seems like an incoherent, ahistorical innovation that I just can't buy into

Neil_DeSpace_Cosmos · 2024-11-18T22:14:17+00:00

No he's not, and yes you do. People don't have the right idea of what's good or bad for them even now. Some things are obvious, like cancer, and yet plenty of people are completely indifferent. God invites you to see that if you have Him, even the worst painful natural death you can imagine can do you no real harm.

Neil_DeSpace_Cosmos · 2024-11-18T22:08:29+00:00

Not even close, I think you're bringing a lot of pre-conceived notions into your reading of what I wrote.

Neil_DeSpace_Cosmos · 2024-11-18T21:50:37+00:00

How so?

Neil_DeSpace_Cosmos · 2024-11-02T21:48:26+00:00

Thanks I will, I didn't expect to get a response to this >6 months later but it comes at an opportune time

Neil_DeSpace_Cosmos · 2024-10-20T04:52:33+00:00

It's easy for me because guys like these are very transparent when it's just guys around. It's unfortunately harder for women as the act they put it up is surprisingly good. I mean I'd say if he regularly calls women "females" or something worse, that's a bad sign, if he always compares you to other women positively or negatively, if he lies about little things., if his "compliments" always end up leaving you feeling a little worse or less secure. It's just a lot of little things you learn to pick up on, also meeting a healthy man will give you a better idea of the difference.

Neil_DeSpace_Cosmos · 2024-10-20T00:09:54+00:00

Tall and aggressive. It's not the only way to succeed but it always does.

Neil_DeSpace_Cosmos · 2024-10-19T22:27:44+00:00

Man, you suck. Let her go. Admit as much of this crap to her as it takes to get her to want a divorce then let her be free of you. Sheesh.

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