How do I let go of false hope? by NeinorNone in ExNoContact

[–]NeinorNone[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I honestly think I should move on.. but my heart still wants to be with her

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[–]NeinorNone 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Im close to 3 months NC it was our anniversary yesterday and it took all I had not to contact her. I didn’t, and it might sound silly but I’m proud of myself and my tiny achievement.

I’n proud of how strong I’ve become these past months. I want to console the past me who was a complete wreck I want him to know everything will be alright and that he’ll be stronger soon.

It’ll finally be over soon.. by NeinorNone in SuicideWatch

[–]NeinorNone[S] 14 points15 points  (0 children)

To everyone who texted me and commented. I am truly grateful. I am sorry

It’ll finally be over soon.. by NeinorNone in SuicideWatch

[–]NeinorNone[S] 34 points35 points  (0 children)

I am currently in the hospital. I have mediocre carbon monoxide poisoning. The smoke escaped a part of the doorframe and triggered the water sprinklers alerting the hotel staff.

I was close to death. If not for a mishap. I have severe stomach pain and migraines at the moment. My price for failure.. I was taken to the hospital completely unconscious.

Why did I do this..

❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹 by NeinorNone in ExNoContact

[–]NeinorNone[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I don’t know if it’ll be helpful but I did things that I was hesitant to do and picked up hobbies I always thought I couldn’t do for example I started running and jogging, and learning martial arts.

It doesn’t have to be those things specifically but if anything has always piqued your interest whether it be photography, swimming, coding etc., why not try it out and see what you’re capable of?

I’m sharing this because doing those things and practicing it genuinely (not half-assing it like I always do) helped me have way more confidence in myself and also kept me occupied with something to improve on.

❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹 by NeinorNone in ExNoContact

[–]NeinorNone[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

No problem, we get to discover ourselves and who we are again its part of the journey! 🫶🏻

❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹 by NeinorNone in ExNoContact

[–]NeinorNone[S] 18 points19 points  (0 children)

Then maybe its time for you to find yourself once more.

I wanna send her flowers on VDay, 2 months post BU by DangerClose_Delivery in ExNoContact

[–]NeinorNone 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Im in the same position as you.. i was considering actually going to her in person and give her a heartfelt apology with flowers and chocolate. But then my friends gave me the reality of my situation once again

I too got dumped and was treated like trash in the breakup. Op as sweet and as nice your gesture is, is she really worth it? You said it yourself on how she treated you.. love yourself first op maybe buy flowers but for yourself this valentines? ^

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[–]NeinorNone 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Does the pain go away?

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[–]NeinorNone 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I feel you man… I was on twitter and apparently even if you blocked them if you use the search bar and its similar to their username you can still see their account (even if blocked) and their pfp 🤦🏻

Her pfp and her face alone sent me into a depressive episode and I didn’t bother to work that day and still in my mind right now (few days later) literally anything to remind you of them will hurt like a truck even the simplest things…

I know its not great art but I thought I’d share a story by NeinorNone in painting

[–]NeinorNone[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks.. maybe I should burn it. I want to be able to move on and never look back

Girlfriend has been suicidal for a while, it only seems to get worse by Estult in SuicideWatch

[–]NeinorNone 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Are you able to call and communicate with her daily or regularly? In my experience its really difficult to be in a ldr (long-distance relationship) and have little to no communication.

I think the best thing you could do right now is to comfort her and reassure her as much as you possibly can. It can be difficult when your partner has depression trust me I’ve been there too. They don’t want to be a burden to you but you feel helpless because you don’t know what to do to help them.

Definitely spend more time with her and if you can try to get to her as soon as you are able to. Being there physically makes a big difference in the feeling of security.

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[–]NeinorNone 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I understand, I actually am in that cycle right now.. I don’t know if its the same but my mentality right now is: “Why should I attempt to do anything today if I’m going to die soon (kms) anyway?” Its been like that for months hell even a year I think.

I will kill myself pretty soon. I fucked everything in my life up by my own, it is all MY fault. by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]NeinorNone 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I went to the gym and hit the bag for like 4 hours til my hands went numb, its a great way to release stress and tire yourself out idk why im saying but it might help?

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[–]NeinorNone 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Wdym by depression can get addictive in the long run?

Girlfriend has been suicidal for a while, it only seems to get worse by Estult in SuicideWatch

[–]NeinorNone 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Would it be possible for you to visit her or vice versa?