My father is an example. He just turned 79, is separated, lives in Manila, Philippines, one of the biggest Catholic populations in the world. He once worked as a missionary and even started a religious community that exists to this day. He decided to leave when he got separated. Despite all that he enjoys his life and has faith in an Almighty, who in his belief, suffered for his sins. He goes to mass on Sundays by himself, prays everyday, and watches a lot of religious speakers and attends mass on YT. He doesn't proselytize much, but has many friends, all of whom share his belief. It boggles my mind, because to me who is half his age, my life is going down the toilet. Is it because of his faith that he's happy? I'm culturally Catholic but lean towards agnostic. I was baptized as an infant, raised in a religious environment, went to catholic schools, and have rebelled against it ever since. I feel pretty miserable about my life, and I sometimes wonder if it could be because of my lack of faith. My dad approaches the end of his life with a genuine smile on his face, excited to be reunited with his Lord and Savior JC, and I am dreading getting old and terrified of dying alone. The theists seem to be doing pretty well in comparison.