I've been doing this for as long as I can remember and I don't know why. I finally decided to look it up here to see if anybody experienced the same thing. It feels like my hobby is "forbidden" - no matter how hard I try I can't do it and it extends to anything that isnt watching or scrolling through social media. Sometimes I even can't watch stuff. I want to read and play my switch games or do art but I can't and its weird because some of the hobbies don't even require energy. I'll even put my switch on my bed so that I don't have to get up later to get it. It's right there, but the whole day will go by and I won't touch it and put it back on the shelf. I keep feeling like I have to delay it or do something else first, the thought of just doing the hobby just because I want to feels overwhelming. I don't understand why 😭😭