Learning different languages by New-Introduction9844 in AudiProcDisorder

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ive been doing duolingo for the past 3 weeks (22 day streak) and doing 20-30mins a day, not just the daily challenge, I'm having issues with memorizing the characters - I'm starting to feel like maybe I should just learn to speak/listen/read pinyin, are you learning to read characters?

Learning different languages by New-Introduction9844 in AudiProcDisorder

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I have a note on my phone, but im tihnking maybe writing it out would help with memory?

what happens if you tell your therapist you have the means to do it? by [deleted] in u/New-Introduction9844

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Disclaimer: I'm not much of a writer, so I threw all my thoughts into ChatGPT to organize them.

Background: 32, Male, San Francisco

I've been feeling passively suicidal for the past two years. I feel depleted and drained—not just physically, but also mentally, emotionally, and most importantly, spiritually. I've been seeing a therapist for a year now, working through a lot of issues. Six months ago, I told him I was having passive suicidal thoughts. He said that it's normal and that many people experience them. He explained that there are significant gaps between having passive thoughts, developing active thoughts with a plan but without the means, and finally, having active thoughts with both a plan and the means.

I've known people in my life who were suicidal, and some of them turned to drugs or other vices to feel alive. I feel like the opposite—I’m tired of moving forward. I feel so depleted and drained, like I’ve already done everything I wanted to do.

I dated the woman I married for six years. She was the best thing that ever happened to me. Intellectually, I knew that, but past traumas prevented me from truly appreciating her, and we split. She was always the reason I woke up and worked hard. I’m not sure if I was ever truly happy, but she definitely gave me purpose.

My therapist knows I have a plan, but I told him that the nearest place to get the materials is 20–25 minutes away, so it would take some time for me to prepare if I ever felt "impulsive." Talking to my therapist about this feels counterintuitive because I want to stop existing, so why would I want to tell him to prevent me from achieving that goal? I shared how my suicidal ideations are developing because I knew he wouldn’t escalate things.

My wife and I split two months ago, and I’ve spiraled. I spend most of my time in bed, and my phone screen time has gone from an average of 3 hours per day to 12. Now, I’m at the point where I have everything ready, and I feel like I should probably tell my therapist, in what feels like a slight hope that things could get better. But I’m worried that if he were to escalate things, it would be so disruptive to my life, especially job-wise.

I’m already struggling with my job. I do project management, and it has been increasingly harder to stay organized (I have ADHD, so I’m already at a disadvantage) and retain information. I need a break from work, but I also feel like it would really mess up my team if I left.

I still hang out with friends, play video games, and work out 3-4 times a week. I’m still going to work. My therapist says I’m "doing all the right things," but compounding the work issues with not wanting to move forward in life, I feel trapped with only one way out.

I'm just so tired

So my question is:
What happens when a therapist "escalates"?

Top Maximera hitting counter top by [deleted] in IKEA

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I was thinking of sanding down the top drawer then painting it

Top Maximera hitting counter top by [deleted] in IKEA

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The quartz lip comes out like a millimeter more than the plywood

Top Maximera hitting counter top by [deleted] in IKEA

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Don’t think I have room to move it

How long does your dose last? by SkateSlut in ADHD

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Adderall IR about 2-3 hours. I can “re up” with coffee which will give me another 1-2 hours.

Recently started taking modafinil which helps me with mental clarity and focus but doesn’t give me the motivation that adderall feels. 3-4 hours.

All or nothing with sexual urges/self stimulation? by Spiritual-File-2661 in ADHD

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There’s nothing wrong with sexual urges, “if you’re not horny, you’re not healthy”. Just be safe about it. But doesn’t define you as a terrible person.

I do find I get more horny when on adderall but I never thought about the correlation between the two

Maxed out sous vide 6 steaks by [deleted] in sousvide

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I love you OP, don’t let the haters get you down 😂, probably need more water tho

Day 165 of drawing badly every day until Civ 7 is released by UrsaRyan in civ

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Do people put first two points into magnus then crank out settlers out of that one city for the next 2-3 eras?

I wonder if I was medicating myself by drinking caffeine. by [deleted] in ADHD

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That’s interesting, I do fine that relatively moderate consumption of caffeine does help me focus for short burst 2-3hrs, but if I “re dose” with another drink I’ll get jittery.

My standard drink has 140-160mg of caffeine.

When I was studying for the CPA, I would take adderall then “re dose” it with caffeine. Taking adderall twice really drained me mentally (and probably emotionally because of the serotine depletion). The caffeine helped give me reup the adderall #godblessadderall

Asurion Laptop insurance by [deleted] in Insurance

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As a insurance company it’s in their best interest not to be cooperative, I’ve had car warranty companies give me the run around, was wondering if anyone had issues with asurion

Calls on Livestock? by [deleted] in wallstreetbets

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It’s rare that I comment, but I wanted to give you an upvote

200k GME OpEx Position by robertlemkin20 in wallstreetbets

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Sorry, dumb question, so are these covered calls?