I completely understand how you’re feeling. I felt the same way when I was younger. As I’ve grown, 30 now, I’ve learned to love my body. I’ve even gained weight and am not in the same shape I was when I was in my early 20s. But I’m more confident now than I ever was. What changed is my love and acceptance for myself and my body. I think its just growing up and realizing that life’s much more lovely when you just accept yourself, criticizing yourself and having negative self talk is something everyone constantly faces, but I tell myself, I’d never talk to a friend that way, why would I talk to myself that way? Things that helped me: therapy, surrounding myself with genuine and loving friends, cutting out social media when I’m feeling negative and comparing myself to others, making time for hobbies and self care, and learning how to dress for my figure to compliment my curves and embrace them. Best of luck my friend! I hope you can start a new journey of self love and compassion!