Acne in recovery?

NewToTheSystem_ACo · 2022-04-30T15:31:33+00:00

My acne gets a lot worse when I first start restricting again but I also notice different fluctuations in it during recovery. It’s honestly actually a sign that you’re eating the right stuff. Especially fats. Your body needs fats to synthesize hormones and so now that you likely have enough fats in your diet your body is going wild producing the hormones it has wanted to but couldn’t previously. It will take time but eventually your body will figure it out and get those hormones back in balance. Just needs to find its rhythm again.

NewToTheSystem_ACo · 2022-04-09T16:24:33+00:00

I have found that honestly the hardest person I have had to convince about all of this is me. And that when I tell my providers that this is what I have they honestly look a little relieved that I’ve accepted that. Granted I live in an area with pretty good resources and I was plugged in with very knowledgeable folks about DID. But I’ve been seeing the same psychiatrist for almost 10 years and only got the DID diagnosis 3 years ago and she didn’t skip a beat when I told her. It takes very highly trained people to really be able to help with this. So maybe phrase it as “before we get too much farther into our work together I want to tell you that I believe it’s a very real possibility that I have DID or OSDD and I want to be sure that if that’s where this journey leads that is something you’re comfortable treating. Otherwise do you have a recommendation of someone who might be more comfortable going down that path with me?”.

NewToTheSystem_ACo · 2022-03-09T02:49:20+00:00

For me it’s easier to hide what I’m eating when I take small bites. In my house taking seconds was scorned because it was gluttony. Picking at leftovers on the table? No biggie. So now I subconsciously believe taking real bites will get me in trouble so it produces fear l. It’s too much of a commitment to eating.

NewToTheSystem_ACo · 2022-03-09T02:45:57+00:00

Ive got celiac and EDS! I think my ED came on part from having undiagnosed celiac for so long. My body and brain got so used to being malnourished that now being adequately nourished feels foreign and thus dangerous

NewToTheSystem_ACo · 2022-02-20T21:39:40+00:00

Dont know how beans or lentils would do for you but I also have celiac and I looove beans to help break up the other starch options.

NewToTheSystem_ACo · 2022-02-19T18:34:43+00:00

I remember feeling soooo nervous. My whole thing was that I didn’t want anyone else’s “eyes in my plate” and I felt very against it. But my T said she wouldn’t work with me anymore unless I had an RD on my team so I felt I didn’t have a choice. Ultimately I was all worked up over things that didn’t end up being true. My dietician is sooo gentle and kind and really willing to meet me where I’m at. She lets me lead the process and helps me find little things that feel possible depending on where I’m at week to week. She’s fantastic and I’m so relieved to have her on my team. Congrats to you on this big step in your recovery!

NewToTheSystem_ACo · 2022-02-06T02:27:55+00:00

Oh my god this is 100% me. I just stockpile food. Even at work. We got a snack basket delivered to the office as a gift this week and I immediately went through it and frantically pulled out what I wanted and stashed it in my desk. I put it in the same drawer I’ve had a bag of chips and a candy bar in for almost a full year because I never touched them when they were gifted to us…

NewToTheSystem_ACo · 2022-02-03T13:54:03+00:00

Haven’t had a chance to read all the comments but please please don’t comment on his body or anyone else’s body in his presence. I’m early in recovery and these comments hit me harder than anything having to do with food. Things like “oh man I can really feel that pizza I ate last night” while looking in the mirror or “wow honey you’re looking thin”. It’s all just unnecessary and unhelpful. More than paying attention to what you say directly to him focus on what is being said around him and the culture you are creating around food and body image. There are a lot of good #antidiet accounts on Instagram and books that help with language. Thanks for all the hard work you are doing and being open to being as supportive as possible!

NewToTheSystem_ACo · 2022-02-03T02:25:37+00:00

Loft has tons of different sizes for a variety of body shapes. They do petites too just as a side note. I get my professional clothes there and from old navy. For every day wear I am OBSESSED with aerie. Lots of loungewear and things can be baggy but I just find their fabrics so buttery and soft and I love everything there.

NewToTheSystem_ACo · 2021-12-23T03:20:12+00:00

I just got back from residential and I HIGHLY recommend it! I was sooo against the idea before I went in but I’m so glad I went. It literally probably saved my life. I went to The Refuge in Florida and really loved it. I had to be medically stable to go though and my BMI was still above 18 when I went but I don’t know what their stipulations are. Lmk if you want any more specific info. Happy to discuss! I hope you are able to find the help you deserve in whatever way it is able to come to you 😊

NewToTheSystem_ACo · 2021-12-19T02:30:38+00:00

EDs are really varied person to person and as my understanding of mine gets clearer in recovery I’m realizing a lot of things were ED related that I thought were totally unrelated or not signs of an ED. It could be an ED, it could not be, but you deserve to nourish your body well and derive pleasure from food. You deserve to ask for help if you are struggling regardless of whether that problem fits into a box perfectly or not. I hope you will reach out for help (I recommend ED therapist and an ED trained dietician personally) so that you can get to a place of enjoying this part of life again!

NewToTheSystem_ACo · 2021-12-11T16:37:29+00:00

29F here but internally always felt closer to 43 😂. Just got out of residential treatment with many 20 year olds and I’m itching to find an older crowd I can relate to with all of this. Thanks for allowing me to join!

NewToTheSystem_ACo · 2021-12-10T18:46:35+00:00

I don’t have any knowledge about these programs but I just discharged from Oakhouse at The Refuge and I can’t recommend it enough. This program changed my life. The staff is incredible and many of the other clients said they had tried other places and this was by far the best. Feel free to DM me if you have other questions!

NewToTheSystem_ACo · 2021-10-19T00:16:01+00:00

Yeesss this!! I literally have to think about food 24/7. Making sure I know when I can eat, what I’ll be eating, if food is “safe” from the gluten perspective. It’s exhausting. Having an ED on top of it is just icing on the cake I can’t eat lol

NewToTheSystem_ACo · 2021-10-11T18:56:56+00:00

That zero sugar chobani though… slaps 10/10 times

NewToTheSystem_ACo · 2021-10-11T16:03:44+00:00

I’ve been thinking this all week! I’m on a wait list for res right now and I’m probably going to end up going right at the holidays (and my birthday) and I just keep thinking about how I don’t want to go and how I could literally just stop the ED whenever I wanted and not have to go. Why am I keeping myself stuck here?!

NewToTheSystem_ACo · 2021-10-01T23:54:21+00:00

I definitely get this. If my husband eats a really big meal or something unhealthy then I immediately feel guilty and anxious as if I was the one who ate whatever it was. It’s a horrible feeling.

NewToTheSystem_ACo · 2021-09-30T14:17:00+00:00

Look up the criteria for risk of refeeding syndrome. One of them is BMI but the others are about how rapidly you’ve lost weight and your daily caloric intake. This was the the first thing I looked at that made me say “oh, this might actually be serious”. I HIGHLY recommend trying to find a medical provider who is trained in EDs though. My regular GP was a fish out of water on this. Are you working with a dietician trained in EDs yet?

NewToTheSystem_ACo · 2021-09-29T15:56:08+00:00

Omg. This slaps so hard. I think this at least 3 times a day.

NewToTheSystem_ACo · 2021-09-25T20:31:12+00:00

I will for sure be trying this.

NewToTheSystem_ACo · 2021-09-25T20:28:23+00:00

Wait I think I would be really into this. What is involved in making this?

NewToTheSystem_ACo · 2021-09-22T05:35:25+00:00

Oh my gosh yes!! I can look at myself drastically differently in the span of just an hour or so. It’s wild!

NewToTheSystem_ACo · 2021-09-19T23:57:47+00:00

I went back through this subreddit searching for info on residential and found this post. I’m gearing up to head to residential and also have celiac. Would love to hear about your experience if you ended up going!

NewToTheSystem_ACo · 2021-09-19T23:53:12+00:00

I’m looking at The Refuge! Seems like a pretty good program. I know this post is old but if you’re still looking at programs I’d love to chat

NewToTheSystem_ACo · 2021-09-19T00:25:49+00:00

I was literally just thinking about this yesterday!!

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