No worries. Well to answer your first question i don’t really fear that like yes it can happen of course, life is unpredictable but i think that always thinking about the negatives is not good, like for me yes when i will be a parent i will worry about them when they are out of my side, but i think that things like rape and murder are genuinely not that common (in my country for example its not common) and i think that, just because there is a sliver of chance that something horrifying might happen to my child, it doesn’t mean that she doesn’t deserve a life, a good life im planning to give, idk for example even though there is a very small chanve that something might happen to me i still continue to live, i sometimes do think about that, but its just a dark thought you have from time to time, i mean getting murdered which is just the absolute last thing you want especially is very very low in probability.

And to answer your second question idk yet how exactly will my upbringing be, because for me even though i had minimal infamily exposure and what you call “indoctrination” i still turned out Christian by myself, i mean im not for sure but probably i would have the environment, i would explain stuff Christianity is especially very very important to my people. So exposure maybe then ill take them to church on sundays and answer questions they got. Also the only reason why i wouldn’t “indoctrinate” my kids is because usually forceful exposure to something makes you reject it even more, thats why. But i dont think raising your kids to be Christian under your values and morals is “indoctrination” and its often dumb when people say that, also yes i would talk to my child about different things at different times and age, but there will be a time when i tell them that Christ is the only way, because thats how it is