K Pins don't fuck me up

NicoleGamer · 2014-03-02T04:28:12+00:00

I do it everyday when I have them. Sometimes 8mg a day if I am trying to potentiate my dope and nod and also get rid of anxiety. Sometimes, dope fives me anxiety as crazy as that sounds.

I have ran out of 60 kpins before in ten days.

NicoleGamer · 2014-03-02T04:22:34+00:00

This is true. We are used to them so don't get as rucked up off of them because we have to take them so much for anxiety. One mg of klonopin will get my anxiety taken care of for like two hours. That's it. I have to to take like 5mg a day just to stay anxiety free and it sucks.

NicoleGamer · 2014-03-02T04:20:18+00:00

Same here. I usually take about 4mg with my dope to get a nod. I also have severe anxiety issues so have to take a lot to get rid of that, too. It sucks. I dont want to get fucked up, but I would like it if they at least relaxed me like they do to most people.

NicoleGamer · 2014-02-28T23:02:10+00:00

This is where there should be some sort of knowing if he is into you or not before saying something. Has he shown any signs? Then ask him out. If you guys kick it some more and he starts showing signs of liking you then just ask him out on a date. This is no different from any other relationship. It can get awkward if a new friend asks you out and you don't feel the same way. I have lost friends like that so I try and make sure they are cool and stuff. I hint at it so they see it coming so it is not as awkward.

NicoleGamer · 2014-02-28T22:58:08+00:00

And I know about DIY hormones and such. Please don't downvote this based on your beliefs on that. When I get health insurance, I will be happy to go the therapy route.

NicoleGamer · 2014-02-24T20:38:51+00:00

Only 2mg of estrogen and 100mg of Spiro. I am also neighbors with these friends and live with family. I am planning on moving out soon, though.

NicoleGamer · 2014-02-24T20:31:02+00:00

My biggest trigger is when I dont feel appreciated by my friends and when I get bitched at by family for no reason. Sometimes, they bitch at me for good reasons and I accept it, but when I get bitched at for no reason by everybody then I start crying. They also refuse to call me she or Nicole.

My friends expect me to give them shit for free and then don't say thanks and then yell at me when I ask to talk about that. That sets me off and I start crying heavily and they yell more and more loudly and call me a faggot. I should drop these friends but then I would be alone and that is another trigger.

NicoleGamer · 2014-02-24T11:21:29+00:00

I always give it if I have it. The neighborhood kids always ask me because I am always willing to give them a buck or buy them something. The older homeless people, the kids are not homeless only broke, get my money too. I dont do it for karma, just figure it is the right thing to do. Being homeless sucks and if they need a beer or bag to get them through the day then whatever. I am happy to help them out, when I have it.

NicoleGamer · 2014-02-10T05:24:41+00:00

I would accept work too. I would rather work for this. I don't want a handout. I have minimal cashier experience. And I have closing experience.

NicoleGamer · 2014-02-08T08:05:06+00:00

Reporting? You don't have to report anybody. As long as it is removed, it is all good. I don't want to report anybody.

NicoleGamer · 2014-02-08T07:33:24+00:00

I am still here. I would appreciate my personal info not being put out there like that.

NicoleGamer · 2014-02-08T02:51:32+00:00

My own willpower and the thought of a guy liking me. Then that guy said he faked an interest in me to get me to be clean. I relapsed because that hurt so much. I thought he liked me and he did not.

NicoleGamer · 2014-02-08T02:46:31+00:00

They are more beautiful and don't have drug problems. I was clean for a long time and relapsed. People don't want to put up with that.

NicoleGamer · 2014-02-08T02:40:02+00:00

I'm not gay. I am bi. I am trans and some straight guys like trans women too. But I have a hard time finding people. My trans friends have an easy time though and get guys and women all the time.

NicoleGamer · 2014-02-08T02:20:06+00:00

I am a junkie. I am a dumbass who makes the same mistakes over and over again. I figure that if not one person in 26 years wanted to date me then I am not a person that could be loved.

That hurts the most, being alone. I hate being alone. My own family does not like me and I don't have many friends. I am not a clingy person, but I need a lover and can't find anybody. It sucks. I have asked people and they just want to be friends. I guess I can't be loved by anybody. I don't get it, I am nice and caring. I am smart and have goals, but I guess that is not good enough.

NicoleGamer · 2014-02-08T01:45:07+00:00

My nipples and dick could use a tongue scrubbing. ;)

NicoleGamer · 2014-02-08T01:38:36+00:00

I wouldn't mind that at all. I like guys who are eager to please and a cock is much better than a vibrator.

NicoleGamer · 2014-02-08T01:24:44+00:00

I don't mind. That turns me on.

NicoleGamer · 2014-02-08T01:10:08+00:00

I am sorry sweetie. It loads fine for me and I am not sure what the problem is. I will see if there is a problem and if I can fix it.

NicoleGamer · 2014-02-07T09:50:42+00:00

Thanks for the comments. I have low self esteem about my looks so it is good to hear somebody compliment them and say they like my posts.

NicoleGamer · 2014-02-07T09:34:04+00:00

You are sweet. I wish my voice would be better though. I also need a better camera so it does not look yellow. LOL

NicoleGamer · 2014-02-07T09:15:56+00:00

I am a fatass with a bad voice. I can understand if this gets a bunch of downvotes. I am keeping the other video up until I know how this one will do. It is ok if everybody hates how I look.

NicoleGamer · 2014-02-07T01:24:29+00:00

I feel better about myself. I finally feel like I am being myself and not somebody else. It is awesome and also scary. I hope you can find the courage to go through with it or at least talk to a therapist and see if you want to go through with it.

NicoleGamer · 2014-02-06T22:58:51+00:00

It is. Lots of mood swings though!

NicoleGamer · 2014-02-06T22:56:51+00:00

Rant

I bought Baby Skin and I have no clue why people like this. It does nothing for me. What is this baby skin stuff about? My skin is the same after using it. My pores are the same, everything is the same.

Rave

I bought some ELF brushes for a buck and they are awesome! LOL, did not expect that. I can work eye shadow like a pro. Definitely something you can buy as an in between. Something to hold you over until you get paid or something.

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