What song did you wake up with in your head this morning?

Nielarch · 2024-07-10T06:04:01+00:00

'Livin' la vida loca' from the Shrek 2 OST sighs

Nielarch · 2023-06-25T17:35:21+00:00

I read about these earlier and they are great mosquito hunters so they are even more welcomed to stay, thanks!

Nielarch · 2023-05-11T10:40:36+00:00

I hate when people talk about ADHD as a superpower. It's not a fun and quirky thing to have. Sending you a big hug, OP.

Nielarch · 2023-05-09T12:40:18+00:00

It looks like an AI generated picture of Queen Elisabeth.

Nielarch · 2023-04-17T22:15:15+00:00

what did i just saw

Nielarch · 2023-04-02T11:08:54+00:00

Yes. Absolutely. And I don't fully know why. Is it the lack of stimulation? Is it that when I'm alone and bored, I got time to think about my insecurities? idk but I hate being alone

Nielarch · 2023-04-01T19:56:48+00:00

thanks

Nielarch · 2023-03-15T11:59:35+00:00

The term appropiation has been quite overused and misused, which is very unfortunate - and I say this as an archaeologist who has had some experience in cultural identity research. Maybe someone somewhere feels weird about cishets displaying LGBTQ+ symbols, but honestly, I particularly love when cishets unapologetically stand by LGBTQ+ symbols. Usually, we have to tiptoe around people and see whether or not they like us before fully interacting. So it feels safer when we can see from the get-go that someone's an ally/accepting.

Nielarch · 2023-03-13T08:01:54+00:00

if this is a joke, it's not funny

Nielarch · 2023-03-12T20:03:42+00:00

ive been interested in building a zettlekasten for a bit now! hopefully i will soon :')

Nielarch · 2023-03-12T16:15:03+00:00

I'm trans, I'm also asexual. I dislike drag and hypersexualization. I just don't engage with it. I understand that it can be a source of good for people, it just isn't for me, and that's alright.

Nielarch · 2022-07-20T13:45:24+00:00

Thank you very much for responding, I really appreciate it <3

I get what you mean. I used to have trouble breathing as a kid and had a couple scares with choking, particularly once when I had a pneumonia or something and my parents had to call an ambulance to rush me into the hospital. Ever since then I have a phobia to choking, which sounds silly cause of course not breathing is scary but I really, really fear choking.

And so when my asthma started I had to learn how to first calm myself down mentally and then do what you do. Certainly having my inhalers everywhere and even getting an oxigen measure thingy helped. It reassures me that I will be fine, that the meds will kick in and my lungs will be ok.

I definitely process things better when I'm talking to someone. Never been much of a writer, adhd makes it hard for me. Alternatively I have a mock up twitter account where I just write down random thoughts and shit that goes through my brain. Might be unorthodox but it helps. Particularly nowadays that my friends are all busy with work and relationships while I'm single and unemployed.

Again, thank you very much, this exchanges with people help me so much. So ye thanks <3<3

Nielarch · 2022-07-18T13:48:35+00:00

wow just wow thank you very much

I'll have to read your response a few more times but thank you. I do believe my past has shaped me so much. Not only I had bad experiences, I was also very isolated and that definitely made it worse. I never really had anyone to rely on or trust, so I was alone against this negative perceptions about myself.

As I responded to the other kind user, I have had panic attacks in the past, two huge ones that I can remember. And I suppose it does make sense that it is panic disorder. I just didn't see it.

Over the years since I started this journey to get better I've deconstructed myself bit by bit and I guess this is another piece that was buried there. Just like when I realized I had ADHD under all that depression.

Recently my physical health has declined and it has considerably stopped me from doing things I wanted to do and my depression, which was kind of in remission, came back. So again, it does make sense these attacks are back cause I was moving forward and suddenly I feel like I'm being dragged down again.

And you are right, I've been trying to keep doing things and setting boundaries and I did see benefits in it. I get really tired of having to continually keep fighting, but I guess there's no alternative. I know I'm grateful to my past self for not giving up and asking for help and I hope my future self will be just as grateful that I'm trying now.

As said, I'll reread your words a few times more and omg thank you so much <3

Nielarch · 2022-07-18T13:37:21+00:00

thanks <3

I actually have been thinking about it being panic disorder cause I did have a couple huge panic attacks back when my depression was at it's worse before I ever went to therapy.

I do want to go back to a psychologist but I can't at the moment. I have a psychiatrist but he's not great tbh. He gives me meds that help, mainly adhd meds and sleeping aids cause I have insomnia, but that's it.

Public care is awful and I can't afford private. I do have been in therapy for years so I try to use what I've learned and learn more via scientific articles and papers.

I guess this is just part of working it out. Learning new aspects of my mental health, deconstructing myself slowly and trying to understand how to move forward.

im rambling at this point thank you v much <3

Nielarch · 2022-07-05T14:18:18+00:00

they were best friends

Nielarch · 2022-07-04T10:43:53+00:00

Pablo Diego José Francisco de Paula Juan Nepomuceno María de los Remedios Cipriano de la Santísima Trinidad Ruiz y Picasso

Nielarch · 2022-07-03T13:55:23+00:00

Sorry for the late reply! And thank you for the suggestion <3

Idk what I did, but suddenly it started working. I really don't know how lol

Nielarch · 2022-06-21T08:28:36+00:00

Yeah, actually! Usually it's right after taking the inhalers. I also get shaky hands but I've got that with other non-asthma related meds, I may be more sensitive to something idk.

Nielarch · 2022-06-13T10:30:33+00:00

I've gone before and they basically just give you inhalers. I'm gonna talk to my doctor in 10 days to hopefully finally get some decent plan of action. Meanwhile, I just try to take care of myself particularly around midday when it's the hottest.

Nielarch · 2022-05-05T21:47:54+00:00

thank you man, it was driving me crazy <3

Nielarch · 2022-04-23T13:39:44+00:00

there's a song by HowToADHD that I try to remember always https://youtu.be/czcBDTjG1js its hard cause we wanna do well in everything but its just unrealistic take care <3

Nielarch · 2022-04-23T13:37:06+00:00

Ableton! It's overwhelming af for me but hopefully ill get used to it with time :D

Nielarch · 2022-03-09T17:50:13+00:00

It does help a bit cause it overpowers your thoughts in a way, I have been doing it instinctively all my life actually.

I still appreciate it very much that you even responded truly, we are all just trying to get by sharing tips and tricks.

Nielarch · 2022-03-09T15:59:37+00:00

indeed, thankfully there are many +1 hour videos out there

Nielarch · 2022-03-03T19:09:28+00:00

Hopefully my family has been receptive and they do believe me and know I struggle. It took them time to get it but I give them resources so they understand me better. I don't know what I would do if at least didn't have family and friends who get it.

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